"Why are you texting me?"
"I saw you in the background picture on Yoongi's phone and thought you were hot"
Warning: This story may contain strong language use, sexual content, fluff and MEMES
I was watching him from his doorway. Debating if approaching him was a bad idea or not. He scrambled something down on a paper. Looked at it for a second, shook his head, curled the paper into a ball and threw it behind his back. I picked it up, him still not noticing my presence.
You're like the whole world to me Hug me harder and more painfully The something that we shared And you can't make it nothing I hope you don't forget You're my Every day, every day Summer, winter Even though you may be unaware You got the best of me
It was great. I couldn't understand how he could throw it away. And whoever these lyrics was about, was lucky.
This love was true, sincere and honest. True love is rare, and it's the only thing that gives life meaning.
I want to meet her.
"Yoongs" I said fidgeting with my fingers. I didn't know how to approach the subject.
He took of his headphones and spun around on his chair.
"Yes, is everything alright?" He said trying his best to make his voice sound stable and strong. But when my eyes met his glassy ones I knew he was broken. He was on the apex of breaking down, taking my heart with him.
But soon it was all gone, because he smiled and his pain became invisible. It's scary how much a smile can hide.
"I've been meaning to ask you something for awhile now" I said voice small and careful.
"Sure Jen, sit down" He said and i could hear the tension in his tone of voice, but he stood up and followed me over to his bed were we both sat down facing each other.
"Who is the girl you're in love with?" I said voice firmer than expected, cutting straight to the case. I noticed his change in face expression. He looked down on his pale hands that was shaking like an earthquake. I took them in mine, but their uneasy shaking continued.
"I don't know if I should tell you" He said voice shaking as well. He was vulnerable. Fragile like a crusty leaf.
Why can he not tell me? Doesn't he trust me?
"Yoongi baby, you can tell me! I promise I won't get jealous. You have always been like a brother for me. I don't love you like that so it's ok you can tell me who your heart belongs to" I said. Regretting it the second the first tear rolled down his cheek. He lifted his head, his dark eyes screaming in pain against the fairness of his cheeks. It left me breathless and i reached forward to comfort him but he moved away taking my sanity with him.
"You really don't get it huh?" He said, voice a ugly mixture between anger and heartfelt sadness.
I didn't, that's what pained me the most. My oblivious self.
"I love you Jennie, ok? Always have, always will. I remember the day i met you was like listening to a song for the first time and instantly knowing it would be my favorite. I love you so much that the word love feels to empty to describe it. You were never supposed to mean this much to me; i was never supposed to fall this hard. But you know what? I did and that's the truth." The tears was streaming down his perfect face by now. Mine as well. I was speechless.
Disappointed in my self. How could i hurt him so much without even knowing.
Happily walking around in the great beauty of my own happiness, unaware that i was destroying his.
Constantly walking over him everyday, obliviously.
"Yoongi...I..."
"Don't Jennie. I know you don't feel the same. You could never love me like I love you" He said voice broken more than ever.
"Actually... If you had told me this one year ago I would be able to give you the answer you're looking for" I said, part of me knowing it wasn't the right thing to say.
"What?" His hard breathing had stopped for a moment and he stared at me with a dark expression.
"I was in love with you too, but you were seeing someone else at that time, so i told myself to forget about you" I knew my words wouldn't help him. I just wanted him to know that he wasn't undeserving of love. Because he deserved love more than anyone.
"And you did? you forgot about me?"
"Eventually" I said, choked up with the memories "But Yoongi, please don't hate me, i want us to continue being friends"
He scoffed "I could never hate you, I knew you were going to break my heart, but a part of me just really hoped you wouldn't"
"omg Yoongi, im so so sorry" I embraced him in a hug and he didn't reject my touch this time. He didn't reply he just cried into my neck, letting his sadness soak the collar on my shirt.
A/N: ayyoo what's good fam?
This probably has a lot of mistakes so feel free to correct me :)
The song lyrics was from best of me btw haha nobody asked but skrrt skrrt goodnight
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