Fatal

PART 39

*CAMERON'S FUNERAL - 10:12am*
A thin rain was falling from the sky. It was like the angels were crying for the loss of Cameron.
Thomas was wearing a black suit and he had sunglasses on, to hide his red eyes, for spending the night crying. He knew everyone from Cameron's family, Gina, Cameron's mum, was hugging Thomas, while she cried, she was desolate.
Gina: you were good to him Thomas - she said while hugging him - you helped our family...
Thomas: no...it was my fault Gina... - he sobbed - if it wasn't for me he would be here with us today
Gina: don't say that! You are my son too! Do you hear me? - she held Tom's face and looked at him - I know you would never do anything to hurt him!
Thomas: I just...it hurts so much... - he said and Gina held him
Gina: I know...I know...

When you and Timothée arrived the funeral you couldn't believe Cameron was dead, you thought that he would appear at any moment with his beautiful smile, waiting to give you one of his amazing hugs.
But when you walked inside of the funeral, and saw his coffin in the back of the room, your whole body started to shake. It was real. You walked closer and that's when you saw Cameron. He looked like he was sleeping. Tears bursted out of your eyes.
You: no...no... - you sobbed and Timothée hugged you. You heart was broken. You wished it was only a nightmare and that you could wake up at any moment. When you opened your eyes you saw him. Thomas.
Standing in front of you, he looked a mess, his eyes were totally red, his swollen face of crying, a sad look in his eyes. He looked like he could fall apart at any moment.
You let go of Timothée's embrace and ran to Tom, hugging him. He hugged you back, and you two started to cry copiously.
It was the first time you guys saw each other, and you two realized how much you needed each other.
Thomas: I'm so sorry Y/n... - he sobbed. It was the first time you saw him crying. You looked at him and swiped a tear away from his face.
You: shh I'm here now, I'm here with you - you hugged him again
Thomas: I'll never let ou go again Y/n...it was a mistake, I thought I could protect you but I can't...I can't protect anyone - he said with his head on your shoulder - please, make the pain go away...
You: I wish I could Tom...I know how you feel, we'll never forget about Cameron. We all loved him so much...
Thomas: I doubted him Y/n...he died because of me - he looked at you and you wanted to cry even more
You: no! He died because of Harrison! Because of Jeremy!
Thomas: I wish I could back time...bring my brother back...
You: I wish we could do that too... - you said and he took a deep breath

At the end of the funeral you went to Tom's house, you couldn't leave him alone like that. God knows what he was capable of.
You helped him to walk upstairs to his room, you prepared a bath for him and helped him to get his clothes off. It was so sad to see him like this, so fragile...that was not your Thomas.
He got inside of the bath and sat on it, holding his knees. You sat on a chair by his side, and took the sponge, rubbing it through his body.
You: we are going to be ok Tom...I want you to know that - you whispered while wetting his hair - I don't want you to blame yourself for what happened. I know Cameron would never blame you...he loved you
Thomas: I loved him too...I just...I don't know how to move on with my life...it seems like everyone that I love dies...my mom...now Cameron... - he looked at you, his eyelashes were wet too - I'm afraid of losing you too
You: you'll never lose me...I'll be here, by your side ok? - a tear rolled down through your cheek
Thomas: you promise? - he asked and you stood up. You took off your shoes and your black dress, getting inside the bath with him. You laid on his chest and took his hands, wrapping his arms around you.
You: I promise