An Attempt at Joy

note: i know this is very short but you need it tounderstand the story. this is the first story i've uploaded so enjoy!

Prologue: Where Am I?

Hopes, dreams, childhood wishes, all gone, dead in ditches. Cut my wrists and whip my back it seems like all you can do is talk some smack. Make it real, hurt my deep, I need to feel alive when I hear that message beep. A message, what? For me? I'm awake now, so let's see how this emptiness came to be.

Funny how I'm named Joy...I definitely haven't felt happy for a long time. I've just gone through years of my life feeling nothing, thinking nothing, being nothing. I feel like I've just woken up and it's the strangest thing. There are people around me, my friends I guess, and they're talking loudly and laughing. I'm following Shelby and apparently we're going to beat up some girl for ratting out Steph, getting her suspending as well as getting her drugs taken away. How did I end up here? I'm small for my age with blonde hair and gray eyes only a freshman and...well...I don't belong here. So I began to, for the first time in a long time, walk away.