An Attempt at Joy

an attempt at joy: part 3

Chapter 2: Hey good lookin!...wait I shouldn't say that.

I'm feeling so lost, feeling so confused. I want to go back to being used. This makes no sense, why do I feel this way? I would get rid of this no matter what I had to pay. Don't get to close, just walk away, wait...no, I want you to stay.

'I seriously hate Mondays' my whole weekend had been a complete blur and I was already back at school. The locker rooms stunk like b.o. and it was only first period. Yeah I have P.E. first thing in the morning. It was either a blessing or a curse. I mean...excirsising before you're even awake sucks but it's kinda a nice wake up if you know what I mean. Besides, I like to stay in shape and the coach doesn't bug me and I can listen to my music. Don't be perves, we met in the boys locker room after everyone had changed, the coach was not in the girls locker room with us. After my name was called for attendance I put in some Dresden Dolls, I've always felt that the song Girl Anachronism fit me perfectly and it kinda made me laugh. Someone pulled me ear bugs out. 'seriously!' that was the world's new bad habbit or something. People need manners.

"Hey I was just wondering if I could sit down, I'm new and there's nowhere to sit, it smells bad, and it's way to early in the morning for me." I looked up at the girl. Her voice was obviously the one of a girl but it had sounded a little boyish. 'awe' She obviously didn't have a uniform yet because she was wearing in a white Hollister jacket and jeans when everyone else was wearing maroon shorts and gray shirts. Without saying a word I moved over and put my earphones back in. Apparently we were running today because we were walking up the hill to the track. ' this is the reason I love observing people' I didn't even try to contain my giggling when I saw the class crazy talking to the new girl. Tracie, the completely insane and very scary to be around girl, was harassing her new interest. This was definently worth muting my music for.

"You're really pretty," Tracie was walking so close to the girl that she was practically on top of her and it was the funniest thing on the world. Ok so my humor is a little mean and cynical but hey, life calls for pessimism right? I guess she was really pretty. She was a couple inches taller than me, but of course most people were, and had brown hair, big brown eyes, and very full lips. 'Who are you kidding? She's sexy.' Oh jeez I'm ignoring that thought brain, thank you very much.

"oh thanks.." I could tell how awkward she felt.

"Do you wanna be my best friend?" That would have to be one thing I respected about Tracie, she didn't waste time 'hahahaha I'm so funny'.

"Umm....sorry I already made a bestfriend"

"What?! Who?" Awe poor Traci, it looks like she scared away another one. I was busy giggling when the new girl pointed at me. 'Wow this is interesting. I've never felt so used".

"Not Joy! She doesn't even like people. She wouldn't even wear Will's jersey and he's the nicest guy ever," Ok so Tracie officially made me mad. It isn't that I cared what this girl thought about me but Tracie was always nice, too nice most of the time, and now she was dissing me? I had to get revenge.

"She is my bestfriend Tracie. We're the closest friends, we're goping to be friends forever," Apparently she thought I was serious because poor Tracie got mad and ran away.

"Thanks I think, so your name is Joy?"

"Yup that's my name. And you are...?"

"My nsme is michelle and it's nice to meet me best friend." She laughed. She had the most perfect smile, it was just unbelievable. Thinking about this and her standing next to me for some reason made me very uncomfortable.

"Yeah, for sure. Later." I then took off. 'God I feel like a dork, she probably thinks I'm some weirdo, taking off running on the track when everyone else was walking. Wait, why do I even care? She's just some girl' This was very awkward. I was going to have to switch some things up to get back in my regular beat again.