written by : Mary Anne Seña
email : anne8_78@yahoo.com
... Do you have a bad childhood? Too bad, for you to have trust issues? Do you have real friends? Are you sure they're real?? Or you just assume they are??
Living a life surrounded by people who only cared for your needs when they get something from you, is somewhat a miserable life. It's a journey of bumpy rides & it's a pity that you can't do anything about it.. Embracing pain often, accepting punishments you don't even know the story behind & wishing that one day you'll wake-up & all were just a nightmare.. you wish!!
Annie experienced that kind of living. And growing up, she haven't give her trust fully to anyone but to her Journal. She feels more safe with it. She can write anything she wants to say to vent out her sadness, to express joy & to keep a secret all to herself. She just made sure she will hide it to a place where no one finds it..
Chapter 1
Dear Journal,
It's a bit cloudy today.. but I don't like bringing an umbrella with me to school. It's not going to be cool walking with that thing. Plus I won't be able to fold it in time when the bus comes because I have lots of things to carry. I hope I'll be good in class.. That way when my Mom comes home she'll be proud. I will talk to you later. Bye for now.
Annie
June 1991
... Annie is in her first year of high school. And competing academically among other students in her school. She's very good in class, not just that.. She's good in school activities too. She's a beautiful teenager. And though her Mom works abroad, Annie & her Sisters made sure they will give back her mom's sacrifices a justice, by being top in their classes.
But growing up with just her Mom's brothers & Sisters supervision isn't a walk at the park. They have to be patient to all the cruelties they encounter everyday. How strong can those kids be?? That is my question either.
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Dear Journal,
I was upset awhile ago. I don't know why my friends are mad at me when I got selected to be part of the school choir?? I mean, I can sing. And it's our Teacher who chose who's going to be in. I ate alone during lunch. It was really boring. My crush passed by many times I didn't even feel alive. I ran home as soon as the school bells rang. I don't think I needed to stay for chit-chats. Oh well... Talk to you before bedtime okay??
Annie
June 1991
..... Three of them live with their Grandparents. And it's because the house is huge, they have to do chores they're assigned to. Annie is more on an outdoor gal. She likes watering plants, feeding the chickens, sweeping the front & back yard and a lot more. She's very funny too. Sense of humor is everywhere when she's around.
You can see her smiling always & joke a lot. By just one look you will never know how sad she is deep inside. She made sure she will act like she's happy because that's what she promised her mother.
Every night before bedtime she will cry in her room. She has to be very quiet even when she's crying for she doesn't want her sisters to see that she's weak. As a kid she wished many times on a falling star but her wishes didn't came true. Lucky to know she isn't a quitter. She's a "to see is to believe" type of a person. And that made her extraordinary.
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Dear Journal,
Tomorrow is going to be another day. & I really don't know how will I say Hi to my friends. Today they seemed to be a little off. But on the bright side, it didn't rain.. I wish I'll be able to explain to them that singing is something you'll get since birth. But then I knew they already knew about it. I wish my Mom will come home soon.. that way every time I'm upset I'll just hug her tight. Well, I'm glad you're here... at least you're a true friend. I mean, you haven't really said anything back to me... but you do listen to my problems that's why you're special. Good night I'll see you in the morning!
