My Shoulder To Cry On

Chapter 2

hi guys :) thank you for all the feedback on chapter 1! it meant alot :') I will try to update tomorrow or the nexy day, but i'm not sure because it's a long weekend and i might be going boating. anyways READ/COMMENT/FAN ! thanks for reading oh and sorry it'a kind of short... i will try and make the next one longer.

love you all <3 -Shannon

Now that I know, I wish I didn’t remember. My heart was beating faster as I tried to calm myself down form that terrible piece of information. Then a horrible thought struck my head.  If I’m in this condition, what about my father?

Where is he? Is he ok? I think in a panic. If he is hurt I could never forgive myself.

Even though he wasn’t always the best father, he was my dad. He was also all I had left. I used to have a normal family, but when I was seven, everything changed. My mother left us for reasons that my father and I had no clue of. She just walked right out the door and didn’t turn back. Ever since that day my father has become quite carless, but nevertheless he managed to take care of me and I took care of him in return. I need him to be okay. He just has to be. Why did I let him drive!?

I was dizzy at the thought of anything happening to him and I felt myself slipping into full unconsciousness once again; only one thought present on my mind.

This is all my fault.

Louis POV

“This is all my fault,” I said while pounding my fists on the hard hospital floor. My knuckles throbbed from the impact, but I welcomed the pain with open arms. It hurt less then seeing my Rosy in this condition.

I looked over at her frail body lying on the thin hospital bed. She was hooked up to life support and she had IV cords hooked up all over her body. I approached her bed again and reached for her tiny hands.

She was only 2 years younger then I was, but she was a great deal smaller. With my 5’9 frame, I towered over here tiny height of 5’3. I always used to make fun of her for it. I called her the Rose that never grew, but at this moment I found her diminutive size quite adorable.

         Her long blond hair fanned out on the pillow and I reached out to stroke it. I brushed some stray locks out of her face and looked at her pale complexion. I missed the warmth that was always present in her cheeks and the sparkle of her bright blue eyes. I longed for her beautiful smile and her loud and careless laugh that made people want to laugh along with her. As I looked at my best friend lying there, I realized for the first time how truly beautiful she is. I realized that maybe, one day, we could be more then friends. I sighed as I thought of the impossible. She would never like me like that. To her I was her closest friend and for me that was enough. For now.

         I let my eyes drift down her body when it fell to her right side. The doctors did a great job in surgery, but her whole right side was collapsed. When she got to the hospital she was dead, but they restarted her heart with shock treatment. Her lungs had been pierced by her broken rib cage and she was unable to breath. It was a miracle, but she was depending on these machines to keep her alive during her current coma state.

I walked over to the wall and kicked it hard. Why couldn’t I just have answered the damn call! It would have taken me 30 seconds! I could have avoided this. This shouldn’t have happened.

*flashback*

         Music pounded in my ears as sweaty bodies brushed up against mine. I looked over many heads trying to spot the boys, but I couldn’t find them over the sea of people that occupied the clubs floor. I looked at the bar longingly, really wishing I could have a drink. But since Liam was usually the dedicated driver and he was with Danielle today, I had to be the responsible one.

         I was suddenly grabbed by the arm and pulled on the dance floor. I turned around to be met by my curly haired best friend. He started drunkenly dancing and I laughed and joined him.

In the middle of one of our awkward sprinkler moves, I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I pulled it out and looked at the ID to see it was Rose. I was about to pick up when I was pushed over by a wasted bloke who was storming around the club like an idiot. My phone was knocked to the floor and I scrambled to pick it up.   

When I finally located it, the ringing had stopped and there was no message. I went to put it back in my pocket when it starting vibrating again in my hand. I jumped at the startling feeling and saw that it was Rose again. What is it’s an emergency? I thought

“Dude just leave it, it’s your night out,” Harry slurred as he snatched the phone out of my hand.

I sighed and nodded, promising myself I would call her back first thing tomorrow. It probably was just her wanting to talk. She would sometimes call if she couldn’t sleep.

“Good boy,” Harry said as he handed me my phone back, “Now lets party!”

He pranced off and started dancing again as his curls bounced in every direction. I smiled at him and ordered a plate of chicken wings, planning on enjoying the rest of my night.

 *15 minutes later*

         I was laughing along with some pretty girl who has been flirting with me most of the night. She just leaned in for a kiss when my phone suddenly went off again.

         “Shit,” I muttered as I looked at the screen. It was my mum.

Why was she calling at 3:30 am? I wondered.

I pressed talk and put the phone to my ear.

“Hello,” I shouted, trying to be heard over the blaring music.

“Hun,” I heard my mum say through sobs.

“What is it mum?” I asked worried, “are you and the girls okay?”

Did something happen to her or my sisters? I thought in a panic. Surely they were okay, I prayed silently.

“Yes, we are dear,” she choked out, “but I need you to come to the hospital.”

“What’s wrong!” I said clearly getting upset now. Who was in the hospital that I needed to see?

Then my mum uttered out two words that made my heart ache. The two words that I least wanted to hear at the moment.

“It’s Rose.”

*End flashback*

The sound of Roselyn’s heart monitor increasing suddenly interrupted my thoughts. It was beeping fester and faster and I didn’t know what was happening.

“Doctor!” I called, “Anyone? Help!”

I rushed over to her and grabbed her hand. I squeezed her fingers lightly and I wasn’t at all expecting what would happen after that. She squeezed back.

“Doctor! Come quick!” I screamed.

I leaned over her as I heard feet rushing to the room. The doctor threw the door open and walked over to us.

“She squeezed my hand!” I choked out through my tears.

I stared at her with deep concentration. Maybe there was hope after all. I bent down and pressed a kiss to her forehead and when I looked up I saw something that I never thought I would see again. I saw her sparkling blue eyes looking right at me.

“Hi Lou,” she croaked out, “You miss me?”

I felt a part of me that had been missing come back into place. My Rose was back and I would do everything in my power to not lose her again.