Chapter 1
I am sick of being a secret. I want to be able to hold & kiss my boyfriend in public. But, Management doesn't want us together. They have told & made everyone believe he is dating this model. I can't stand her. When will management accept the fact that Niall & I are really serious? They can accept the fact that Louis & El broke up & now he's dating Kelli, but not the fact of Niall & me?
I can't take the picture of him & the fake girlfriend. It breaks my heart. I know he doesn't have feelings for her, but it still hurts a little. I don't know how to tell him. I think he already knows. I always got really nervous before I was going to say something to him, so I usually didn't.
Today, I went on Twitter. Directioners knew me as Niall's best friend. Practically everything was filled with Niall & Stacey, Stacey & Niall. No, they should be saying Niall & Ella. There weren't ever any pictures of them kissing, Niall told me that he's never do that, no matter what management says. In the picture, Niall & Stacey were holding hands & hugging. I knew it was nothing, but I still lost it. It pained me to see this. I decided to tell Niall how I feel.
Niall came home at dinner time after working all day. I was in the middle of cooking dinner. He came behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist & kissing my cheek. "Hey babe. How was recording?" I ask him continuing to cook.
"Amazing! I think I did awesome," he said stealing some of the cheese I grated to make the pizza.
After I put the pizza in the oven I went into the kitchen & sat down, waiting for Niall to follow. He finally sat down with his arm around me. "Babe? Can we talk?" I said twiddling my thumbs around.
"Yeah, of course!" he said turning towards me. "What's up, love?"
"I-I don't know how to say this.. I can't take it anymore. I can't take seeing the pictures of you & Stacey anymore. I want everyone to know you're mine. I'm talking to management tomorrow," I said trying to hold back tears. I don't know why I'm about to cry.
"Babe, I know, I know. I'm getting tired of it! Stacey is such a bitch too! I'll tell management that I'm 'breaking up' with Stacey & am with you, my love," he said looking into my eyes.
I mouthed thank you before I kissed him. I felt him smile under the kiss, which made me smile.
After we ate dinner, we fell asleep watching TV. I fell asleep in his arms, the one place I felt 100% safe. I had a dream that we were in high school again. We met each other in seventh grade & were best friends since. I dreamt of the food fight we started. The head cheerleader was talking crap about my friends & me, so Niall & I chucked our hamburgers at her. We both got suspended.
