A Mother's Love

Emotions Bring Down Walls

*Ahsoka's POV*

Oh no.... How was i going to tell Lux, I'm 17 kriffing years old!!!! I'm not ready to be a mother, we are too young to raise a baby, as well as the Separatists attacking. OH DEAR GOD!!! Anakin was going to disown me, MY MASTER IS GOING TO DISOWN ME!!!!

I was still staring at the pregnancy tests on my dresser when i felt him coming closer to my door, i quickly stood up and shoved them in the secret panel in my bed before he came up to the door and knocked.

"Ahsoka, Ahsoka are you in there?" I could hear his voice and as i answered my voice hitched in my throat, "I'm in here Luxie!" I felt my legs give way as i stumbled into him, "Woah babe, are you ok?" I thought for a bit as he sat me down and i thought back to when Hera convinced me to take the tests....

Flashback

I was throwing up every hour, every day for a month and a half, i can tell you that it's not the best(!!) If my house wasn't being renovated, I wouldn't be living with my best friend, she wouldn't be worrying about me and she wouldn't be stressing me out about wether or not I'm having my boyfriend's baby!!

I was brought back to reality when Hera was repeating my name over and over again, "Hera i swear to god i'm not pregnant, Lux and i only did it once and i was on the pill! We made sure to use protection!!!!"

She didn't look convinced and i knew she wasnt going to drop it but I couldn't protest as her 3 and a half year old daughter ran in and grabbed onto my legs, "Auntie 'Soka! Auntie 'Soka! Look what i didded today!!"

I couldn't help but smile as she started to talk about her drawing of me, Hera, Lux and her, "That's a great picture Sabine! Why don't you go and draw another for Lux for when he comes round?" I didn't have to tell her twice as she giggled and ran off to her room.

I turned around and Hera was holding a test, i rolled my eyes, "Hera! If i take the test will you knock it off! I didn't do this to you when you were pregnant!"

She looked at me with wide eyes as if she was about to scream, "THAT'S BECAUSE I WAS KRIFFING FIFTEEN!!!! THE LOVE OF MY LIFE WENT TO FIGHT IN THE STUPID WAR AND GOT HIMSELF KILLED!!!! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE CAST OUT FROM YOUR FAMILY AND LEFT TO BE ON YOUR OWN WITH A CHILD WHO HAS NO FATHER!!!!! LET ALONE ONE WITH AUTISM!!!!" at this point she had broken down, tears were streaming down her face.

"Hera calm down, i didn't mean it like that!" She was shaking so much so i went up to her and hugged her tightly, Sabine ran in again, "Mumma? Why are y-you sad?? D-did i do something wrong again?" Hera looked up shaking her head no.

I was about to answer her when Lux ran in and picked her up, "Hey 'Bine!! How are you?" I couldn't help but smile as Lux played with his niece Hera an I smiled when he tickled her sides but stopped when Lux ran after Sabine.

"Ahsoka, you need to take the test..... please.... You deserve to know and so does Lux" I knew that she was right so I took the test to find out if it was true.... And It was....

Back to the present

" 'Soka? You ok...." i knew i had to tell him, it had mean almost 3 months.... but what would he say? "Lux, sit down..."

His eyebrows knitted together with concern "Okayyyyy....." I took a deep breath, "I'm pregnant....." his expression softened, "I'm gonna be a dad?"

Tears welled up in my eyes as i nodded and hugged him tightly crying into his shoulder, my emotions were mixed but then several thoughts popped into my head...

What would Anakin say? I'm not part of the order but what if they want me back? What will i do? Will i even tell them? I felt myself begin to hyperventilate.

"Ahsoka breathe, this baby will be so loved, it wouldn't matter if they knew but i understand if you don't want to tell them....." I nodded into his chest and sniffled quietly.

We were going to be a family, and no one was going to tell me otherwise.....