A Mother's Love

Trust in the Force, It's always there

[I am so done with school and life🤬🤬 i feel like its not worth it anymore, this will be my last chapter for a while but i will be back, hopefully....]

*Hera's POV*

I knew that there was a possibility she could be force sensitive but I always just shrugged it off, I didn't want her to be put in a war that is beyond our control....

There have been many times in which I've almost lost Ahsoka and Lux but I couldn't bear to lose Sabine, I just couldn't.... not after I lost Kanan.....

*Flashback*

3 1/2 years ago

"Hera I know you don't want me to go but you don't have to lock yourself in the bathroom" The truth is that I have been throwing up on and off for almost 2 months now because I'm pregnant.

Kanan doesn't know and I don't want him to leave because there is a risk that he won't come back. If I lost him I don't know how I would survive on my own, "Kanan please don't leave, I can't lose you..."

He smiled half-heartedly, "Hera, I love you too much to leave you. There is no chance that I would Leven if I could." I almost started to cry but that could've just been the hormones.

"Promise?" He kissed me on the cheek, "I promise..." I raised my eyebrows at him.

"Promise what, Jarrus?" he chuckled, "I, Kanan Jarrus, Jedi Padawan, promise that I, Kanan Jarrus, will not leave your side or die on this mission." We both laughed at his sarcastic 'oath'.

*Back to the Present, Still Hera's POV*

We shared a loving kiss before he left, if I had known that he would break his promise, I would've never let go of him....

I looked up from the photo I kept of Kanan and I on our first anniversary of dating, and I felt tears begin to sting my eyes. He never knew about my pregnancy, and if I had told him he wouldn't have left, he wouldn't have been killed and Sabine would know her father!!!

Hera...  I opened my eyes, "Kanan??" but there was no one there, "I must be just hearing things again" No Hera, it's me, but it's not your fault... it's not your fault that I was killed...

"Nonono this isn't real, your dead Kanan... I felt it." 'I may be dead but I'm a part of the force now and that means that I know about our daughter, I know about Sabine.... '

I gasped how did he know, "She found you lightsaber, she said that it was singing to her, Ahsoka was meditating when she felt a disturbance from her"

You need to talk to Ahsoka, whatever she felt could lead to something bad. Before I left for the mission a wrote you several letters and hid them in things that you and I treasure.

I never told anyone where they were or what the clues meant, if you need help talk to Sabine, she knows more than you think.... if you ever miss me and think that you can't keep going, find one and read it.

Trust in the force, its always there, as am I..... I will always be with you my love, never forget it.... 

"No please don't leave me Kanan, I can't raise her without you" I got no response, "Dada?" I heard a little voice come from Sabine's room, I went over to the door and listened not wanting to disturb her, after all I would've wanted the same thing.

"I weally m-miss you dada and so does mumma, I-i want to show y-you all of my pictwers but your not there and-and-and help me calm down when I'm angwy" my heart ached for her but I left her to be alone with 'Kanan'.....

I went back into my room and started to wonder where he could've put the letters, then I thought that if he wanted me to find them they will be in places that meant more to me than they did to him.

Then it hit me, he gave me a photo frame that had words on the back, the words didn't make sense to me then but maybe they would now.

I went over to the bedside table and found the frame I thought about, it was a chromium frame that had the words 'Ner kar'taylir darasuum, te letter gar seek cuyir underneath te chromium'  I talked to Ahsoka and ran it through Chopper's system but there was nothing in his banks that could translate it, then I thought what Kanan said, I never told anyone where they were or what the clues meant....

One thing Kanan said keeps repeating itself in my mind..... If you need help, talk to Sabine she knows more than you think.....

The only person left to ask who could understand Kanan's words would be Sabine, but she's only 3, she wouldn't be able to read it.....However Kanan's DNA is in her along with mine so she is more developed for this matter....

......However little sense that makes......