I shouldn't have done that..
I shouldn't have said that
I should not hope for more
It's hard to sink it in
this dream of mine of you
Why can't I digest the truth
this stupidity of me
Haven't learn anything
Haven't learn from the past
You will never be mine
Fooling myself again and again
I just stood here
stayed..
for nothing....
you're not here
you will never be..
another mistake..
mistake again...
no one to blame but me
simple as that
you got what you want..
the best of me ....
for a short period of time..
I am a fool
I am a fool
you won't be there
no embrace
no kisses
and I can't ask you
.... for anything
I saw this coming
I thought I was prepared
but I was wrong
I am a fool
wanting you here
wanting you near
but this has to stop
You're way too important
than my own drowning passion
I'm used to this...
it will be gone soon...
I am nothing but a fool
I must give it all away
let this go..
cause you're far more precious
than anything I should feel
_July 14, 2014_
