I Won't Give Up (Big Time Rush Story)

It was a cold, rainy night in L.A. and 20 year old Kendall Schmidt had just gotten home, to the house he shared with his 3 other band mates. They had been filming for several hours and now he was so tired, he almost fell asleep on the couch, as the other boys were playing video games.  Just as he was about to doze off, there was a ring at the doorbell.

“Kendall, can you get that, we’re busy” Carlos asked, eyes focused on the screen. Kendall sighed as he stood up and walked over to the door. He opened it and was shocked at what he saw.

“Uhh, guys? Can you come here?! It’s kinda important.” He yelled back towards the boys on the couch. They all ran over immediately, sensing the urgency in his voice. Logan was the first to reach him, and his jaw dropped as Kendall stepped to the side, revealing a baby, who couldn’t be more than a few months old, asleep, wrapped in a blanket, and inside a small basket. There was a note attached to the basket as well, but none of them could understand what was going on, they just stood there, with their mouths wide open. Finally, Carlos spoke up.

“Well, at least pick it up! We need to get it out of the rain!” Kendall quickly reached down, and picked up the basket and baby, and brought them into the house, closing the door behind him.

Meanwhile, a young woman watched from across the street, hidden behind some bushes. She smiled as she watched the blond boy pick up the baby and take it inside. She wiped off a few tears from her dark brown eyes and whispered “bye baby” as she walked away.

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“So? Read the note!” Logan exclaimed as Kendall brought the baby over to the couch.

“Shh, you’ll wake the baby!” Kendall whispered. And then, as if on cue, the baby started crying.  He picked up the baby out of the wet basket and cradled it in his arms, rocking it and humming quietly. The baby fell asleep almost immediately. Kendall set it gently back into the basket and looked up to see the boys confused/ suspicious looks. “What? I babysat as a kid. Deal with it.” He explained as he untied the note from the basket. He opened it up and began reading quietly. “Dear Kendall, James, Carlos, and Logan, Hello, it’s been awhile since I’ve seen you guys, and I miss you, but you should understand my decision in leaving you. I’m leaving you now with Emma. If you haven’t already figured out, Kendall, she’s your daughter. She looks just like you, right from the blonde hair to the green eyes. I love her, but I can no longer care for her. I need you to do your job, as father, for a few years at least, she’s only 3 months old so you don’t have too much catching up to do. James, Carlos, Logan, please help him.  XOXO. Good luck. And please, don’t try to contact me. I will find you when its time, if there ever IS a time... Love, Leah.”  Kendall sighed as he finished the letter.

“What are we going to do?” Carlos sighed, sitting down on the couch next to Kendall.

“I’ll tell you what we’re gonna do. We’re gonna be the best freaking dads this baby could ever have.”  Kendall exclaimed.

                The rest of the night was spent getting supplies for the baby, while Kendall stayed home and watched her. As he thought about what happened a year ago. He lived in a large house with Logan, James, Carlos, and Leah, his best friend since they were kids. She instantly became friends with the rest of BTR and the 5 were very close. Until THAT night… they had had a party to celebrate a new album release, and Leah graduating from High school. They were all getting very drunk, even though Kendall, Leah, and Logan were underage. In a drunken state, Kendall and finally done what he had always wanted to, tell Leah he loved her. She told him she loved him too. He couldn’t remember anything else, except for the next morning when he woke up naked in bed, with his best friend at his side. They both freaked out. There was a huge fight over it. Eventually, Leah just packed up her stuff and moved. She hasn’t talked to any of them since. A tear shed down his cheek at the memory of losing her, the only girl he ever loved, and at the thought of everything she went through this year, alone. Just then the rest of the guys came through the door carrying bags full of diapers, and food for Emma. We figured we could get the rest of the important things later. They made a lot of noise and Emma woke up. She started crying, and Carlos and Logan went into the kitchen to warm up some food, and James came over with the diapers, as Kendall rocked Emma gently.

A few minutes later, Emma was lying on the floor, on a blanket, with all 4 boys kneeling around her and looking at each other nervously.

“Ok, so, who knows how to change a diaper?” Carlos asked. They all looked at Kendall immediately.

“Wait what? I haven’t changed a diaper in forever! And whenever I DID babysit, it was always with Leah and she always did the diapers.”  Kendall explained.

“You can do it dad.” James encouraged, patting him on the back.

“Ok, but watch carefully, you will all do this eventually!” Kendall told them as he waited for their nods and began opening Emma’s diaper to put a new one on. Let’s just say he had A LOT of trouble, made a small mess, but about 10 minutes later, a giggling Emma was now dry, and clean.  “So how’d I do?” Kendall asked the rest of the boys as he picked up Emma and bounced her up and down in his arms.

“Well, definitely not Dad of the year, but I’m pretty sure it only takes 1 try for most people.” James laughed. Carlos took Emma from Kendall and began feeding her with the bottle he had just finished warming up.

“Great, refuel her!” Logan laughed, throwing his hands in the air in defeat.

About an hour later, Emma was asleep in her basket in Kendall’s room, and the boys were talking about what they’re going to do.

“Well, we can’t contact Leah. But we have to go on tour soon! We can’t take a baby on tour.” Carlos said.

“We need to contact Leah though; Emma is going to need her mother. And we’re not going to be able to find a babysitter while we’re working. Let alone the scandal that’s gonna happen if the Rushers find out about it.” Kendall exclaimed.

“Well, Leah told us not to even try, so we can’t. And  yes Emma needs her mother, but she also needs her father, and if we find Leah now, she won’t have both, and after a little while she might get both parents. And Scandal?! The Rushers have been trying to get you and Leah together since the minute you told them about her. They will love this.” Logan explained to the group.

“Leah and I dating is never going to happen. She doesn’t like me back.” Kendall said sadly, looking down at his hands in his lap.

“No, you just freaked her out. And honestly, it would have freaked me out too.” James told him.

“Well this isn’t solving anything. We need someone to babysit while we’re on set tomorrow, and someone to come with us for tour to watch her.”  Carlos stated.

“Ok, I’ll call Dustin tomorrow, and he can come on set to watch her, and I’ll figure the tour thing out later.” Kendall said.

“Really? You’re gonna have Dustin babysit? Are you sure?”   Logan asked.

“Ok, true. Maybe I’ll call Katelyn? I think she’s back in L.A. oh and for tour, maybe my mom can watch her.” Kendall said. The other boys nodded as Kendall jumped up to call Katelyn. He went into the kitchen and leaned on the counter, waiting for her to answer. After what felt like forever, she finally answered.

“Hello? Kendall, it’s like almost midnight, what do you want?” A very tired Katelyn asked. He sighed and explained the whole situation to her. After a bit of convincing, she agreed to meet him in his dressing room tomorrow morning.  Kendall told the guys the good news, and decided to go to bed. Since Emma was sleeping in his room, (in her basket on his dresser) he quietly went in, changed, and climbed into bed, just as Emma woke up for food. He sighed, climbed out, and brought the baby over to the bed with him. He sat down, and began to feed her with a bottle he had near the bed. But after that, Emma still wouldn’t go back to sleep. He rocked her softly and began singing “I Won’t Give Up”. Emma fell asleep shortly after, and Kendall slowly stood, kissed her head, and put her into her basket. He climbed in bed, and somehow, both he and Emma slept the rest of the night.

When he awoke the next morning, he almost forgot about the whole thing, thought it was a dream, that is until he saw the basket. He sighed and got up to walk over to it. But when he got to it, Emma wasn’t there.