Shit just exploded. I died. You suffered. They burned it all to the ground.
No...no...I did that too.
Assumptions from actions shared...perceptions created and set in stone. Cant run from it nor be left alone. I have prepared for the dismantling of my being...sigh life goes on.
Perhaps me not in it...would make it easier on you. I know youll grow to hate, for doing this to you. Yesterday I overthought till it put me in a hole, last night..craving for you to hold me so. Cant really anticipate what's coming for me. Cant lay blame to anyone but me. I do not believe my own will side with me...because ive done this to me. Ruin the life we were trying to grow. Our children now wont be loved as much as they shouldve been.
First and only chance to prove myself and i blew it. Soiled it, soiled it, soiled it, destroyed it.
And it never can be lived down..
YOU ARE READING
Patience
PoetryYou gave a muse to me, so strong I lost me loving you... Coming back...slowly...writing what I think and am too afraid to believe or possibly see but am ignoring...no longer. 4/5/18-4/9/19 Thank you Papi, beloved. R.I.H. May 4 (😶)
