Loki and the psychiatrist (completed)

Second hour: They can smell fear

The first hour had gone, so quickly, I had to make the most of the few that I had left, but I couldn't prod him with a stick until he gave in, I'd have to work at him, if I couldn't make him trust me, I had to make him angry at me. People reveal more when they are angry, they shout uncontrollably, and if I could some how get him to do that, I'd have what I want.

Slowly I get up and make my way to the table, with my back faced to him. I grab the jug and thin glass, then I begin to slowly poor in the water and take a sip, the water was nice and chilled but not as much as he was. I turn back to him, leaning on the table behind me "what do you think's going to happen to you when you go back?"

"Well I'm not going to be greeted with unicorns and smiles" he teased.

I didn't giggle with him, I stayed serious "you could have been" I make my voice sound sorrowful as if I pity him, which in some way I do.

I've hurt him, not much, but I've done something I can see it. He looks like a child I've caught eating an extra cookie after he was told not to. He looks like that for a second then he looks up smiling. He's smarter than I thought, I know he's caught on but he won't let on that he has. "You should thank me"

"And why is that?" I say not flinching, I have to keep my game face on, that's what this is now, a game, the psychiatry is gone, this is a plain conversation.

"I gave you the Avengers, earths weakest... I mean mightiest, heroes" he mocks them, on purpose, he truly believes he had won, no matter the circumstances.

"Not intentional though was it Loki?"

"Say my name again, I love the way you say it with such spite" he makes my skin crawl, I amuse him, like a clown at the circus, and I hate it, Im not here to please him, I'm not something to help pass the time.

"Are you pleased that you created them? The Avengers I mean"

"I made myself something to beat. I blew up the balloon now I can deflate it, I'll do it to them, I'll do it to this earth, I'll do it to you! slowly, intimately..." His voice became frightening, he began to stand up from his chair, moving toward me slowly, I felt my way around the table as he came closer, his stare piercing my skin, I felt my way to the edge of the table and around the wall until I was backed into a corner and he stood in front of me, staring down at me, I could feel his breath on my face as he spoke "... In every way I know you fear and when you scream I'll split your skull!" He bent down quickly, moving his lips close to my ear, "this is my bargain you mewling quim" his sadistic whisper makes my body shudder as he steps away smiling returning to his seat casually.

I'm standing in the corner still, with one hand on the wall behind me, and the other I'm using to push back my hair, my body sweating. Admittedly he scared me, I feel fear now as I look at him, getting comfortable in his chair again. I make my way back to the table and take the glass with half the water still in it. I top it up and down the glass to calm my nerves.

Although I already have, I don't want to show him my fear anymore. So I put down the glass, grab the notepad and pen, sit down quickly, and scribble down some notes, about what I am dealing with, the monster he had released.

He looks at me, waiting for a reaction, but I won't give him another one. He smiles wickedly, he can see my fear, I try to hide but like I said he's smart. Slowly he crossed his legs resting his foot on his knee "I like your perfume"

His words lingered, the psychopath taunted me, poked at me... He is getting his own back! Oh how could I be so stupid! He saw that I was trying to make him angry to get him to talk, and now he is getting his own back, showing me it isn't that easy to get into his head.

"You know all you had to do was ask" his sick smile spread across his face like wildfire, he was playing with me, playing with his doll in the doll house, playing his little game to torment me, to aggravate me until I ran out of the room crying. A patient has never made me cry, and though he already has I won't at least run out of the room, screaming murder! I will stand my ground, I will get what I came here for.

He could see my determination, he saw everything, perhaps that was the key, deception, let him think I'm feeling or thinking one thing when I'm feeling or thinking another, then again he's not that stupid, he'll see right through me, or maybe I should play his game, all I had to do was ask right?

"Alright then. Tell me everything and anything you want to tell me"

He stared at me for a second, pondering what he would tell me. Which parts would take away that scary exterior, the parts that would wipe away his intimidation, something that would make the monster human or in this case Asgardian. I could see, yes me not him, I could see that he was struggling to find something solid he could tell me, so I gave him a nudge "how did it start? What made you do these things? What was the push that lead you here?" I spoke kindly despite what he had done, again I had to pretend he was any other patient.

After some time of thinking Loki looked down at the ground, bowing his head like he was ashamed "Thor's coronation to be king"

I scanned his words and wrote a quick note: doesn't refer to Thor as 'brother' as Thor does with him.

"Ok... What happened at Thor's coronation?"

"I allowed frost giants into Asgard" he laughs a small laugh to himself, still staring at the floor through his legs "it was just a bit of fun really"

"Do you see the actions you have taken as 'fun'?"

Note: refers to his misbehaviour as 'a bit of fun' possible psychopath behaviour

"Only sometimes... that day. I was jealous admittedly" I can't believe he's talking to me, I actually can't believe I did it, and to admit something is an improvement.

"What happened after Thor returned to Asgard from New Mexico? When he didn't come back"

"I destroyed the bridge"

He was holding out on me, I could see his mouth about to say more but he stopped himself before he said anything.

"Is that all?"

"Funnily enough it backfired on me, the bridge... Exploded, we both went flying but Thor grabbed Odin's staff as I was holding the other end. I saw Odin, his face was so disappointed" I saw pain in his face now, pain and regret, yet no remorse. His tone softened and I thought I saw tears threatening to escape "I thought I was doing the right thing... For all of us" I could see his flashback in his eyes, he clearly remembered all too well though he tried to suppress it "I... Let go. I fell into a black hole and the rest I wish not to speak of" I decided not to push, whatever happened between Asgard and his arrival in earth was his to keep, something that clearly tormented his soul.

Note: has no remorse for the actions he had taken back on Asgard, yet I see sadness as he speaks - possible signs of regret

Note: doesn't seem to see a difference between good and bad.

Note: switches mood simultaneously - split personality? I think he's too smart for that.