The Day I Died

3 Weeks Ago

"IM SORRY MOM AND DAD. THATS JUST HOW IT IS!" I screamed as I hung up my phone. I haven't been a Christian long, and haven't gotten much support on it either, so it hurts. I know that I can get through it though. After all, coming out to my parents was going to be the most difficult. They just dont understand because they haven't felt Him move in their lives.
"Howdy neighbor." I hear as I sob lightly.
"Hey, James. What've you been doing, other than your wife." It was a low blow but I wasn't happy. My parents basically just disowned me.
"Funny. Why so blue?" He asked. I finally looked at him and saw he was drinking between talking. I'm no drinker myself but by the looks of it, he was finding some enjoyment given he had a bag of seemingly freshly empty bottles.
"Doesn't matter." I responded. He was drunk, and most likely didn't care, so I figured I wouldnt bother him with my problems.
"I mean, if it really didnt matter, you wouldn't be crying in the hallway of our apartments."
"Good point." I said, after all, he's drunk and came to that conclusion. "I'm unhappy because no one supports my decision to be a Christian."
"I'll support it. How much do you need? Is it just donation or are you sel-"
"It's not that kind of support." I cut him off. "I need emotional support. I was just on the phone with my parents and when I told them I was a Christian they were much less than happy."
"Well at least they weren't angry." He quickly responded.
"That's what I meant by 'much less than happy.' Anyway, they weren't the first. My best friend had done the same just a few days ago. The only people supporting me are in my church, a small church mind you."
"So? What's wrong with that? What did you expect after joining a cult?"
"If it was truly a cult, we'd be more like the Jews who still need to sacrifice for forgiveness."
"Whatever man. I know zero Jews that do that."
"Out of how many?"
"Zero. But that's not the point. You joined a cult, and no one likes that."
"I joined a God who has touched my heart. A savior who did all the work for me. A community who looks after each other when no one else will. It's not a cult."
"Whatever man. I'll talk to you later. I think my wife got home but I was just about to-"
"WHAT THE FUCK?!?!" We both hear from his apartment.
"Dammit." James said "I didn't want to be right on that one."
He walked into his apartment and managed to duck fast enough for the bottle that was thrown to go over his head. I left it alone and walked into mine. Was he right? Did I join a cult? Couldn't be. There's just no way. The people there are genuine, and we all know our God to be the one real God. Then again, that's what other religions believe too.
"Hmm." I mutter to myself as I sit down and turn on the TV. "I need to do more research."
I hear a bottle hit a wall that joins mine and James' apartments. It sounds like he wont be sleeping with his wife tonight, or for many more nights
"Do you question God?" I hear the televangelist on the TV say. "Wonder if Christianity is just some big cult? Wanna know why bad things happen if a 'good God' exists? Pick up the Bible, read it. Learn it. Then turn to Lee Strobel's 'The Case for Christ' book. It has his journey from atheism to Christianity, all the questions, all the people he talked to, all the God we worship."
I have that book. I bought it years ago as a joke. I thought it'd be fun to just get a book for Christians and then read the parts that applied to me. Funny enough, it's what got me to be a Christian. Sure, I only read half of it. but half was convincing enough. I really thought I'd be able to find flaws but all of it was so well backed up. That reminds me, I should both finish that book and remember all the stuff, because it was so accurate, I even double checked the facts. It amazed me how little I really knew.
"FUCK YOU JAMES" I hear through the wall as I snap back to reality. My thoughts get like that sometimes.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME WOMAN?!?! YOU COULD AT LEAST TRY HARDER AT BEING AS SEXY AS EVEN HALF THE WOMEN I BRING BACK!"
"I COULD TRY HARDER??? I"M NOT THE ONE HAVING AFFAIRS EVERY FEW NIGHTS!!!"
I need a new apartment...