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Moving on

I set down a box and looked at my mom as she came in with a huge grin on her face, After all these months in hotels we could finally get a place to call home. I smiled as she looked around. Realizing this, this happiness, what it felt like I didnt want it to go but it did, it slipped me away into reality. I frowned and looked down sadly. My mom noticed "whats wrong" she asked worried, she has to much pain to hold so I have to keep mine in. I looked at her "i'm fine." I said, I grabbed a box and looked at her smiling. " lets unpack" she nodded and we started to open boxes.I layed down on my bed tired but thats when I realized I can bring that happiness back by moving on. I looked at the boxes that still lay on the floor still needing unpacking. I then shifted sides and smiled... Moving on, thats it. I woke up the next morning with a bright smile on my face ad with the vibrating of my phone. I set it silent because I knew it might wake omma up. I smiled trying my best to be happy and thought of the good things in life, I dressed in my work clothes. Then I walked in the kitchen. My mom was still sleeping, poor mom... I frowned. I looked around. I need to pour my pain out somewhere, somehow I thought frustrated. I grabbed a notebook and pen and sat at the table pouring my every-thought and problem I have. I smiled when I finished and look at the whole page full if words and then dated it with my name at the top. I closed the book and was about to get up when my mom came out. "Annyeong omma!" I said, with my smile you could see her pain flow out and tears of jot flow in. In this moment I realized I have to be strong. I hugged her and pat her as she cried and then pulled back and kissed her forehead. " omma I love you and wish I could eat with you but I have to go to work and school" she nodded and held my shoulders looking me from head to toe. "Aish Its fine,Who cares go! My little baby wearing his clothes already before I wake up." She pat her hands on the side of my arms proudly. I smiled and went to my room, throwing the book on the bed with the pen. Omma did not stop offering a glass of orange juice, so I drank it all and placed it on the counter back hugging her and smelling her hair; it smelled of clean laundry; like always. She turned and kissed my forehead. I smiled and pulled back and waved, she waved and turned continuing washing the empty glass; which I drank from. I stood there for a second and smiled as mom looked out the window humming and then grabbed the keys along with my bag. I closed the door and locked it and walked away, I notice the more I smile and have a good personality the more people like me and smile back, I felt the warmth of love. It felt as if I was being hugged. I walked to my job at the cafe and cleaned tables and the floor after checking in. Fifteen minutes passed by and I tapped my boss's shoulder. She turned around;she appeared stressed. I hugged her "are you ok?" She blushed and nodded. " May I clock out" she nodded again and I clocked out, walking out. Everyone liked me more happy then silent and so did I.I use to be silent there but it gave me more misery than humming while wiping tables. I smiled and walked out. I arrived to school, this was my first going to school in a new area we moved about two towns away from dad. I walked in smiling and they all stared; probably surprised from me not being a shy student. I walked up to a student, "excuse me do you know where classroom 401 is?" He nodded and gave me directions. " thank you" I bowed and walked away. I entered my class and my teacher smiled. "What is your name?" I smiled brightly. " just call me j-hope!" I said and she nodded. "Come introduce yourself j-hope" I mind laughed at this get it ja hope! I'm going to inspire alot of people with my story. The class was so silent when I entered, I looked realizing that. "Hi i'm your hope, your my hope i'm j-hope!" I smiled, that actually worked out... Yay! They all stood up and bowed "annyeong!" I looked at the teacher and she pointed to a desk. " jimin please raise your hand" I looked over and he raised his hand. In this desk area there were five boys sitting close to each other with jimin. there was just one empty desk. I smiled when he raised his hand and walked over and sat down.