when ya daddy's pose to love ya
and never suppose to leave
and ya mama has to hustle
enden up hooked on her dream
now I'm left with the pieces
Putten it back together
why I gotta be strong
Makin it through this weather
see I wasn't given an opportunity
to grow up
and make it to who I'm suppose to be
see I had expectations
and I had a plan
just like my daddy my mama ran
I was left with kids
I was left with a house
mama dropped me at my cousins
what was that about
6 months
I waited and waited for you to come
and then you came to get me
I thought I finally won
but then you up and moved us
across the fucking town
to some man's house
I guess that you had found
ya husband never loved us
my daddy never cared
this man wasn't any different
we was just something he had to bare
one bedroom apartment
airless mattress in the living room
praying for a blessing
hoping it would come soon
me, my two brothers and my little sister
never saw our mama
that man locked her away
Putten us in drama
then mama got sicker
and had to go to the doctors
two weeks alone
I found a way to prosper
food always on the table
kids always in school
I may have never made it
but the kids knew the rule
their sister had no chance
and that was okay with me
cause as long as they was something
could be all they wanna be
fast forward
a few years later I'm on the run
my mother gave me up
there's nothing I could have done
so I turned to the streets
the only thing that I could do
I had nothing left for me
nobody that I could turn to
so I hustled
got hooked on the money and the fun
I thought that was the life
a life of trappen on the run
I thought I met my husband
we ran this shit together
he turned himself in
it was all suppose to get better
I loved him
So I won't put no dirt on his name
but he fucked up
I thought he knew how to play this game
but my daddy came back
he promised to be better than before
I opened up
he opened his front door
he got me hooked
that feeling of haven my daddy back
but I fucked up
I shoulda never believed that
now here I am
feeling like I'm alone
he got his new fam in a house I use to call home
but I got my cousin
she ain't leaving you know she's loyal
always had my back
never had to question her moral
you know they say
history always repeat
but this time
I won't be the one who's beat
