It was sudden.
Came out of Nowhere.
I was determined, I was relaxed.
This time I was going to control it.
No expectations.
My grasp was tight .
And I was going to be dominant.
But my mind wouldn't stop.
Racing to become a reality.
A vision was forming
My grip was unwinding.
I was quickly loosing control.
It rose.
Higher and Higher up.
Imagination,need and desire began to take shape.
Its weight floated so high up I no longer could reach it.
I couldn't reel it in, I couldn't control it.
And then, like I knew it would, it popped.
It plunged down on me.
Suffocating me with disappointment.
Mad, Irritated, and most of all defeated. This cant happen next time.
Next time Ill reign over hope.
