Atelophobia
The fear of not being good enough.
The problem with that, however
Is that it is not just a fear
It is the truth.
I am not good enough, for anyone
Not for myself, not for my parents, not my friends, not her.
They all deserve better
I can not provide the "better".
It is impossible to be good enough
When all you do is hurt
Specifically the ones you love.
The things you say always seem wrong.
You regret so much, you second guess.
You wonder
Why do they even love me?
I am nothing.
I am worthless.
I am not good enough.
I cannot provide the happiness they so much deserve
I try so hard
So fucking hard
But I can never be good enough.
I was created to hurt.
Hurt myself and hurt others.
I am nothing.
I think they can all do better than me.
And I'm terrified.
One day they will all realize what I have known forever,
And slowly, one by one
They'll leave.
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Depression is my Drug
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