Poetry

My Own Work

~Why can't I just love you without regret?
Why I'm I afraid to love you?
Why I'm I afraid that you love me?
Why do I just want you anyway?

~as a child I was afraid of monsters under my bed. Now are they in my head and I want dead

~teardrops knives and scars.
Alone and dead inside.
Smiling but crying
Asleep one last wish
A dead wish.

~kiss me one last time, I want to say goodbye
Dans with me one time and dead will be mine.

~I give you everything but I get nothing
I work for it and I don't get it
I want you but you're gone.

~can I please get help I beg I don't wanna live
Depression and anxiety please go
Because of you I let love go
Please I need help I can't do it alone
Please I give up my birthday is when I'm gone.

~demon demon in my head
who's alive ad who's dead
Demon demon in my life
Please let it stop and take a knife
Demon demon in my heart
Make on my arm a brand new scar
Demon demon in me
Stop my life and let me free

~One time I was always happy and smiling
Now I'm sad and crying
Wanting to die but stil alive
Goodnight and Farwell
I'm finally going to hell
Or is this hell I thing to myself when I cut my arm
Or is this hell I whisper when my blood drops down my arm
Or is this hell i whrite on a note when my life is slipping away
This was my hell... My life... My death

~Don't give you're heart away it's going to break
Don't love because you lose
Don't help you're going to stand alone
Don't look around you see happiness youre never going to have
Don't laugh every laugh is going to be a cry
Don't be social nobody likes you
Don't live, death is better

~sometimes we know when it's over, we feel it in or hearts
The pain inside of us that nobody understands
We know when it's over but we don't want it to be
So we go on.... And go on...
Until we break.
Its over now
Stop it, time to move on and to go
To late I can't turn back now I'm to far
My own mind is killing me, people are pushing me and they want that I talk....
Silence, what a pretty thing.. Silence
My demon in my head is starting to kil me real slow
Stop please
To late to turn back now, I'm making myself crazy, I'm poisoning myself with my own mind.........