Lady Black/book 2

Potion lesson

"no I'm not okay, I'm tired all of this, it's too heavy to carry it on my shoulder" then I went to Hagrid's hut there is still one hour break

"hey Hagrid can I talk to you"

"of course Lexi what happened?"

"today I used killing curse, I lost my control and lately I couldn't sleep because of nightmare, it's not nightmare it's actually vision and I know it will come soon, but I still don't know what to do"

"sometimes we need to take a break, you are becoming powerful and famous, you need to be yourself"

"but who we are and who we have to be to survive are two different thing, if I wasn't strong enough I would have died many years before, right now I just need to breath and keep going" tears welled my eyes but I refused to let them down. Then I take a deep breath and smiled to him 'I have a lot of things to do before I die" he just sighed

"then let's prepare our lesson, today I need assistant"

"great let's go" students come outside and everyone looking my way

William didn't choose this subject so I went to twins

"hey guys, I'm sorry I was rude in the class I was really upset"

"that's okay but you were so cool" George said

"Did you saw that Moody's face when the spider started moving" Fred laughed

"Now all school knew about your counter curse and want to learn that" Lee Jordan said

"I don't know, I was really angry that's all I know"

"remember us don't make you angry" they playfully said but deep down I really don't want to lose my control again.

Care of Magical creature class finished now we are heading to dungeon for double potion. All students looking me with admiration, respect and scare. I sit with George.

"are you okay?"

"I'm okay just headache, didn't slept well" I told him

"you didn't ate anything since yesterday morning"

"how did you know? Are you stalking me? woa creepy" I laughed

"I care for you Lexi and you're starving yourself, you can sit with me I should fill your stomach then I don't need to worry" he said holding my hands in his, I smiled to him. But door burst opened and Severus come inside when he saw us, if looks could kill I would be already under six feet. George didn't let go of my hand somehow I feel guilty but why should I? I don't have any reason to feel guilty.

We brewed liquid luck. George and I already finished, we sit in the table and I read my letters, I was writing reply to Troy until someone cleared his throat, Severus standing behind me and before I move he grabbed my letter, I glared to him but he started reading loudly

'dear Troy, how are you babe, I'm good. Did you find any job if don't you can come here anytime, Jack will help you and we can meet in my break. Boys wrote a letter too except Moran do you know where is he? I miss you guys and I love you...' I felt embarrassed and felt my heart sink in my chest, I stretched my hand

"Give it back" I glared to him now everyone become silent and watching us

"why should I? It's my lesson and you are doing other things in MY time"

"I finished already" I get irritated

"but I didn't give you a permission to FLIRTING BOYS AND WRITING LOVE LETTER" he shouted

"fuck off" I said in my mouth

"Excuse me what did you say?"

"I said FUCK OFF, YOU DON'T HAVE ANY RIGHT TO INSULT ME NOR DISRESPECT ME NOW I BEG YOU LEAVE ME ALONE AND GET LOST OF MY LIFE" I shouted

"ALEXANDRIA ELIZABETH BLACK" he shouted back now his face turning red

"SEVERUS TOBIAS SNAPE STOP SHOUTING AT ME I'm tired of you I HATE YOU" then I grabbed my letters from him and stormed outside. I run to second floor's girl's bathroom last year I saw chamber of secret in my vision then came here. I hissed 'open' and sink opened I made my way to the main chamber, it has 2 main chamber there are dead basilisk in one of them I think no one entered other chamber in last thousands years I redecorated, now it looks like my common room there are also library full of books, I already read all books in restricted section but from here I can find more books about dark arts and I found 'Secrets of the darkest arts full edition' I bet it's 3 times bigger than other edition.