Everything was fine
I thought.
Until one night, I had a dream.
There was you,
And I was sad again.
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One thought came up to me. Another addition to my myriad of "what ifs" but really. What if.
What if I weren't a coward back then? What if I entertained you instead of pushing you away. What if i've showed I care instead of pretending I don't. What if I told you, would it have changed anything?
But I wasn't brave back then. Something always pulls me back. And I let those things pull me back not realizing how i pull my self away from my happiness.
I thought I was over you. Heck, I knew and dreamnt how college would play out for us. Of finally being over you. And for the few months, It played out right. I never saw you and I thought I didn't care. I THOUGHT i made it. I thought all my feelings i had for you have already disappeared into nothingness.
But why do you have to appear in my dreams? One dream and it ruined everything. It brought back everthing about you. The very feeling I have felt in every dream I had of you before was there. The same exact unexplainable feeling, I would recognize anywhere. Until there was you again. Digging a hole in my heart. Until I'm only filled with this kind of sadness, Once again brought up by the idea of you.
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Love, love, go away.
PoesíaA collection of poetry and prose about love, friendship, and self discovery. x There were times where she've wished of it. Longed for its undeniable presence, curiously wondered about its eternal enigma. but now, ...
