angels... (use to be maybe..)

angels must fall before they fly

jayellas .pov.

"my name is jayella rose lavini and I am scared and confused, but it will get better" I mumble with one hand on my heart repeating what my psychologist was saying "see you soon" he calmly showed us to the door "thankyou" my mum cood from the door. my name is jayella rose lavini I live in Darwin Australia and I'm indigenous to our land they called me Ella for short and I had dark skin, green eyes and straight brown hair that faded into blonde at the tips (natural). "ella when we get home me and your father are going to see auntie dot" she said while looking at the straight dirt road, aunty dot wasn't related to us but she was an elder so we called her auntie in respect. I was half Italian half aboriginal my father was indigenous and had grown up living off the land in a small cabin. when we pulled into the drive way I literally sprinted upstairs to my room and plugged my iphone into the docking station letting it pump music as I lay on my bed silent taking in everything. music was my only escape from the real world I wrote songs and played guitar it made me feel something I havn't in a long time 'safe' I don't know why I think it might have something to do with when I was 4 I was was my dads world I kept him going I was 'daddys little girl' he would sing to me indigenous songs Untill I drifted asleep. Untill... *I shake out anger* I can't say much more. "tanni kieth lavini" some one banged on the door. I walked down in my pj's and squinted my eyes to see tanni crying and an officer standing silent looking at me "im so sorry for the news..." the officer whispered while walking out the door. tanni was my older brother he was 20 and I was 17 he was my only friend he always had my back when I needed him. "tanni? what's wrong" I whispered while cuddling into his chest "don't worry ill tell you in the morning. for now lets get to bed" he reassured me while wiping a tear from his face before I new it he picked me up bridal style and ran up the stairs to his room "can you stay in here tonight" he gave me puppy dog eyes "fine" I sighed and got under the covers "o actually I should go say goodnight to mum and dad" I mumbled while sitting up "ella I love you don't you will just hurt" he sighed lied back down "why would I be hurt?" I questioned "ummm coz you would be away from me" he said quickly I giggled (not buying it) and dazed off. i woke up gasping for air and sweating "ELLA" tanni rushed in as I sit there trying to catch my breath "bad dream?" he murmered while looking at me "i dreamt the same thing again.. I was falling tanni" I panted "mhm you were screaming" he said while hugging me.

most people agree that dying while being asleep is the best Way to die.

peaceful, no signs of pain or torture.

my nuna use to say angels carry them, the ones to heaven. but sometimes angels would get clumsy and drop them by accident.

have you ever felt like you were falling in your sleep then suddenly woke up...