The Dark Side of Love

Losing the ONE

Love, it is a beautiful thing that people look forward too in the future. We wait until we meet the love of our lives that we will marry and start a family with one day, but we never talk about the loves we have lost in the past. This is the story of my lost love, I'm in High School and I recently lost someone who I thought could be the one for me, I still think he is the one for me. My heart aches every time I hear his name or see his face, I cannot explain why or how but I can never seem to get him off my mind. He has some kind of hold on me that will not let go and it's not his fault at all, he has told me to move on and forget about him. But it is easier said than done, he is now happy with someone else and I can't help but wish he was with me instead of her even though he is happy. He made me happy even when I didn't want too, at the end of the day I remember waiting for him at my bus so we could say our goodbyes. He always gave me a hug at the end of the day and that was the only thing that made me believe everything was going to be okay and it felt like all of my worries and problems would just melt away. 

That's the problem with this side of love because it starts out with the good, the butterflies and smiles that cause you to feel happy and safe with that one person. Now there is the crying every night and wishing that I was good enough for him when I had the chance. I can't stop myself from thinking about him every day or when I get good news the only person I want to tell is him because that's what I used to do. We used to tell each other everything and now I am a fading memory and soon a distant memory. Of course, this makes my heart ache by the fact that we used to be so close and now we are so distant is this how love is supposed to end? Every time I see him at school I feel butterflies and not the kind as when you feel giddy inside I mean the kind when you are so nervous about seeing this person you just want to go climb under a rock and disappear forever. I know one day I will find someone who makes me happy as he did, but better because that's what I've heard but I also know that he will never lose a place in my heart because he helped me through so many hard times and stayed up on the phone listening to me cry and reassure me that life is going to get better.