Stupid | J.J.K

49 (Jungkook's POV)

I spend the night alone in my room. My hyungs still ignore me. They seems angry with me. I take the book that I got when we go to Jenna noona house earlier. It's Jenna noona diary.

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It's official. I have a crush. I don't know his name but I will know later. He was so cute with his bunny smile. And today, I finally got a best friend. Her name was Yoon Aera. She was beautiful and perfect. I can't believe I was befriend with her.

I smile when read her diary. I know this is wrong but I have to read this.

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Finally, I know my crush name. His name is Jeon Jungkook. I saw he won the the athletic championship. He runs fast. My throats was hurt because I was screaming his name so loud.

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Happy birthday to me! It's Valentine Day. I was so jealous when saw a lot of couples have a date. I wish I could have a date together with Jungkook someday. Aera got a lot of chocolates and rose today while I got nothing☹️. I notice Jungkook also get a lot too. And, I got something for Jungkook too even that was not a chocolate. I got him a chicken grill sandwich and banana milk. I made it myself. I still not get my paycheck, so I don't have money to buy him a chocolates. It's okay if he throw it away but I was really happy if he enjoyed it 😊

I chuckled. I remember eat her sandwich every Valentine Day. When Valentine Day, I really expecting the sandwich. So, it was Jenna. It was so delicious. I skip some pages and continue read the diary.

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Today I speak with Jungkook! I was waiting for Aera and suddenly he was sitting beside me. I was so nervous because he was so close with me. But, he actually asked me about Aera. Just like another man. Even it was make me sad, I still tell him about Aera's favorite because she was my best friend. Anyway, I still happy because I have conversation with Jungkook.

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I was get a party invitation at Somi's place. I was so excited yet nervous too. I never been to a party before. Aera said she will lend me her clothes tomorrow. I hope it wasn't too sexy for me.

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Stupid. I'm stupid.

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You said you love me before

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It's been a month and Jungkook still doesn't remember that night. Is it that night was meant nothing to him? I really treasure that night. I give him my first kiss and everything. Why my heart was so hurts? Help me.

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Today, I have a bad day. I'm pregnant with Jungkook's baby and Jungkook couple with Aera. Good news and bad news in a day.

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Morning sickness is no joke! I'm fine though! I need Jungkook because I dream about him. He was mine in dream and so caring with baby. Wish my life like that too.

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Everybody was hating me😭 I have no one. Even Aera call me slave. She was using me for her assignment and homework. I'm tired from cleaning my locker that full with trash.

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Check up for my baby today. Jimin and Taehyung company me. I'm glad my baby was doing fine and I was having a daughter! Hope Jungkook will company me one day. I want him to hear baby's heartbeat.

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There is stranger in my house. I hope he will not harm me and Haengbokki.

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Haengbokki's first kicking! I'm so excited. It's hurt but I'm happy. Wish Jungkook can feel her later.

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Jungkook come to my house. I can't believe it. I was agree to help him. I hope I can't fall deeper into him. Anyway, Haengbokki was so happy today. She start kicking as soon as Jungkook step in my house. Maybe she know her appa is here.

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Witnessing Jungkook and Aera kissing in front of me. Why am I so afraid to lose him, when he was not even mine?

Jenna noona diary end like that. She never write again after that date. I look at the sonogram that Jenna noona attach at the back. I caress every picture.

"I'm sorry, Haengbokkies. I was not a good appa for both of you." I said while crying.

Suddenly, I feel someone caress my shoulder. "Don't cry, Kookie. We're here for you." Taehyung hyung said.

I don't notice that Jimin hyung and Taehyung hyung enter my room. They bring me the food.

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28 February 2019