This book is sadly coming to an end not now but soon I've been writing this book for a year now and have literally no chapter ideas! But as most writers would do- start a sequel! Of course I don't know yet..this book started out really good then kinda flopped...I'm planning maybe 4 or 5 more chapters before ending it
Breaking News!!
Noah Schnapp seen with a different girl? Could it be child star actor Noah has moved on all of a sudden? He was seen Friday February 15th with a unknown female,we've gotten feedback many saying it's a family friend of his others saying it's a fan and others saying more than a friend. Of course it's his choice and we'll fully support him no matter what!
Y/n
How could he!!? That lying son of a bitch!!! He lied to me!! Everything we've been through?! Anger rushed through my veins as I sat quietly on the plane my mom and I were both heading to Florida for a new movie I was casted in. I stared out the window trying my hardest not to lose it all right here everything seemed fake...I knew if I were to talk about this to my mom she'd just say "Calm down Y/n your a teenager it's normal!"
Well guess what mom!! This isn't normal!!!! How do I suddenly wake up get casted into fucking Stranger Things then date my celebrity crush??!?!? I first ball up I felt my blood boiling of course I shouldn't be mad I mean we aren't together we haven't been together for quite a bit actually..but we did kiss..THAT SHOULD MEAN SOMETHING!! Sad thing is right when I was almost over him I fell for him again and now this?! I don't know what I feel for him!!! I shouldn't be angry I should be happy to see him happy at least one of us is thriving..I let a sigh of frustration out "You okay honey?" My mom asked placing her hand onto my shoulder "Splendid mom," I said shutting my eyes "I'm just tired." I lied "Get some rest honey we have quite some time ahead of us," She laughed I smiled hearing my mom laugh always puts me in a better mood
Here I am..2 hours later still on this stupid plane currently ranting to Ceci I missed her I haven't seen her in almost 4 months..I haven't really made time for her in which I regret,
Ceci:I know he's your ex and all Y/n but I'd throat punch him if I were you
I laughed typical Ceci
Y/n:I would but the last thing I need it "Y/n L/n angry over Noah's relationship!!"
Ceci:True..do you miss him?
Oh god..that question..do I? No..no definitely not..okay a little...a lot...I hated knowing my feeling for him are still there..
Y/n:Yeah..fuck I hate having feelings
Ceci:Me too sis😔 Finn doesn't even know my name
Y/n:Bitch I- I fucking introduced you guys to each other
Ceci:I know I just wanted to make you feel better
I laughed again
Y/n:As soon as I'm back I swear I'll hang out with you okay??"
Ceci:You better loser I miss you
Y/n:I miss you too
Ceci:Hey I gtg my mom and I are going shopping
Y/n:Oooou for??
Ceci:Homecoming..
Y/n:Omg your going with who!!!!?
Ceci:Probably by myself your not here and everyone her is lame :(
Y/n:When is it??
Ceci:This Saturday..
I'm. Missing. Homecoming. With. My. Best. Friend.
Y/n:I'm asking Finn for you
Ceci:If you do that I'll run you over with a bus
Ceci:But like I'm not stopping you
Y/n:Hehe go shop I'll message you later!
We said our byes and there I sat..bored..again...I put my headphones in and scrolled through my playlist hmmm what to hear? What go hear?
After what felt like hours I finally chose
Thank u,next
As the into played I stared out the window at the white fluffy clouds
Thought I'd end with Sean,but he wasn't a match
Wrote some songs about Ricky now I listen and laugh
Even almost got married and for Pete I'm so thankful
Wish I could say thank you to Malcom for being an angel
It felt as if she wrote this song about Noah and I. I always thought he'd be the one and how I'd spend the rest of my life with him
One taught me love
One taught me patience
One taught me pain
Now I'm so amazing
Hearing that brought my confidence up..why? He's taught me love, patience,and pain..amazing? Not so much but I'm getting better
I've loved and I've lost
But that's not what I see
So, look what I got
Look what you taught me
And for that, I say
Thank you, next (next)
Thank you, next (next)
Thank you, next
I'm so fuckin' grateful for my ex
Thank you, next (next)
Thank you, next (next)
Thank you, next (next)
I smiled I'm so fuckin' grateful for my ex and I should be! Sure he's hurt me and made me upset but I'm sure most Ex's do!! We've had amazing memories together that I'd love and cherish with all my being we've shared our secrets and emotions we've done so many things together and I'm grateful for those moments we had but now..I think it's time I move on..maybe find someone new? Make new memories and cherish them
I kept my smile as I bopped my head slightly
One day I'll walk down the aisle
Holding hands with my mama
Eventually I'll find that special someone and say I do I'll hold my moms hand while walking down that aisle I wouldn't trade her for the world nothing made me happier than seeing my mom happy she meant everything to me and I would do my best to keep that smile showing
I've got so much love (love)
Got so much patience (patience)
I've learned from the pain (pain)
I turned out amazing (turned out amazing)
I've loved and I've lost (yeah, yeah)
But that's not what I see (yeah, yeah)
My family,my friends,my fans they're all the love I need now all my patience cane flowing in my pain taught me to not get ahead of myself and tear my self esteem down I Y/n L/n swear to Never Ever let myself be torn by a simple boy,article,or rumor
Amazing you say? Yes yes I am thank you
I've loved many and lost many those who chose to walk out on me and think I'd be nothing were wrong I made something out of my life by running towards it nothing mattered more than achieving what I wanted and I wouldn't stop at nothing!
Sure I'm not a straight A student in fact I'm not very good with school my grades dropped here and there yes there were times it worried me many told me you mess up your chances the moment you start doing bad in school but I don't see that..
All I needed was support and that's exactly what I got sure I got a few "You'll never make it" but look where I am..about to film my 4th movie,won 3 awards for best child star nothing could make me happier
For once...once in a good year I felt free and not the free you feel when you have your first kiss or get a whole 8 hours of sleep I mean the kind where nothing matters NOTHING! I felt as if I were laying in the clouds that were in front of me everyone's chatter was muted by the sound of my content breathing and my humming
Thank you, next (thank you, next)
Thank you, next (thank you, next)
Thank you, next
I'm so fuckin' grateful for my ex
Noah didn't matter any more. For once he was now just a boy. Not my problem. He meant nothing
My eyes shut as the song played its last verse
Thank you, next (thank you, next)
Thank you, next (said thank you, next)
Thank you, next (next)
My breathing stayed slow and steady my eyes stayed shut my hand drooped over my stomach and my head leaned against the wall my chest heaving up and down calmly
I fell asleep with no worries a peaceful sleep a sleep that felt as if I were floating on a cloud a cloud that was filled with nothing. Nothing but my careless mind
I'm so fuckin' grateful for my ex
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Yikes sisters this sucked..in a way? Kinda my fave tbh as i said tho I'm planning on ending this soon only due to running out of ideas for this. But over these past few months I've had some ideas for a new book connected to this!!
Also read my Jack Anderson x reader story!!
