cold || hyunin (hyunjin x jeongin)

fifteen (encouragement)

it's been a day since their heartfelt conversation. after they talked, hyunjin stayed over at jeongin's home but now he's at his grandparents house and stays over for the weekend.

both have been lost in their thoughts since the time they talked about their relationship.

jeongin laid in his bed, staring at his sky-blue ceiling. his mom drew little clouds on it when he was four years old. she has been so sweet his whole life.

she supports him no matter what happens and respects his opinions. in general his whole family is so nice and he should be happy because everything in his life is actually perfect right now but he's also worried about what would happen in the future.

the future is a scary place. he thought while listening to his favorite song.

they pull me in the moment
you and I alone and
people may be watching, I don't mind
'cause anywhere with you feels right
anywhere with you feels like
paris in the rain
paris in the rain
we don't need a fancy town
or bottles that we can't pronounce
'cause anywhere, babe
is like Paris in the rain
when I'm with you

he opened his eyes.

why do i doubt hyunjins and my future? he is the most wonderful and honest person I know and I trust him. despite all this, I am afraid? why?

jeongin was insecure. his relationship with hyunjin is his first and he was a bit overwhelmed. tears suddenly began to run down his face.
he did not care how ridiculous it was. it's ok to cry. you should show your emotions.

jeongin's mother knocked on the door. "darling I have- oh is everything okay? what happened?"

jeongin wiped away the tears as fast as possible and smiled. he did not want his mother to see him like that. "it's nothing mom. everything is ok."

but his mother did not fall for it. she put down the cup of tea and cake she was about to bring jeongin and sat down on his bed.

"if it was nothing you wouldn't cry. i love you jeongin. you can tell me everything. i'll listen to you."

jeongin was exhausted so he leaned his head on his mother's shoulder. "i hardly slept because so many thoughts are going through my head."

his mother turned to him a bit.
"what are you thinking about?"

he did not know how to describe his thoughts.

"it's about me and hyunjin .. i really love him, i don't doubt that and i know he loves me too but-"

"-you do not know if it's still like that in five years?" his mother completed what jeongin wanted to say.

"i get what you mean. i did think about that too, especially after I married your father, but you have to know one thing; just try it. you love him, he loves you. maybe it's different someday but maybe not. don't think about the future just think about now. that's the most important thing."

his mother was right. he worried too much about the future. but he could not help it.

the two hugged each other tight. "thanks mom. I hope I'm doing the right thing."
his mother caressed his cheek. "i'm sure you do, my little boy. I love you."