daughter of esmund

A/N: Please Read

Hey all. So, there are somethings that I need to talk to you about. I know that I've broken some promises and that I've been silent for a while.

I have to say that this past week has been one of the worst weeks of my life. I got terrible news going into it and terrible news leaving it as well. I won't get into the details but it's something you need to know going forward. The point is, I can't write when my heart is not in it. It took me this week to realize that.

I realized this when I was in the school library staring at the document for this story open on my laptop screen, before I just cried. I felt so guilty for not being able to give you guys the story that I've promised you. The quality of work that I know I can bring to you. I've always arrived to be my best, but I realized this week that sometimes I can't be my best, and that  if I can't be the best for myself, I can't be the best for others either.

The other issue is time. I'm currently in two of my schools productions. My AP class is kicking my ass. I'm not getting home to do homework until 6 or 7 at night. I usually finish my homework around 11 and sleep until I have to get up at 5 the next morning to get ready for school at 7. I've tried writing during lunch but more recently I've been meeting with teachers and counselors at lunch as well. I just don't have time to sit down and right. Even on weekends I'm either doing homework or at school for set build.

Now moving on to the elephant in the room, Annie. Annie and her story. Annie is, in someways, a representation of me. I can say I'm guilty of using her for venting purposes in my life. It's just sometimes it's not healthy for me to write in her mentality. Annie has a mentality that at times leans towards a pretty negative one, something I've not meant to build but ended up being a consequence of her experiences. With everything that's been happening, it's just not healthy for me to be writing in that mindset.

So in conclusion, I don't have the passion, time or emotional well being it takes to write and publish parts of this story. So I'm gonna have to do something I made myself promise I was never going to do again. I'm going to be going on a hiatus, an account hiatus. This doesn't mean I won't be writing, I'm sure I will be, but it will give me the time I need to recoup, come up with a game plan and come back and give you guys the quality of storytelling you deserve. It will probably be a few months, my guess is my next update should come late April or early May.

Thank you all for standing by me and keeping your support up, even when I'm struggling to churn out content. I love you all so much. I'll be back soon. ❤️