By The River

Chapter One

I have my music blasting then my sister Emily comes storming in and she is all sad, upset and shit.

"Sis.. I need a hug" Emily says to me

"Okay... What's wrong?" I ask

"Jacob broke up with me today because I was a cutter and that I wasn't good enough for him" she explains.

"Well sis... you are the most amazing sister ever and that your beautiful the way you are and don't let a guy tell you different" I tell her.

"Thanks sis.. I love you.. Can you keep a secret" she asks

"Yesh I can" I say

"I'm lesbian" she tells me

"Well I'm bisexual... If you can keep my secret then I'll keep yours" I explain

"I promise" she tells me

"Me too" I say

So Em walks out and walks into her room and blasts screamo music and she starts to cry and rite now she usually starts to cut.

Then I start to scream because I can't take it anymore. My sis Tehmi comes running in because I was crying then I was cutting and screaming. I just wanna die.

"CHAR! ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL YOURSELF" she yells

"YES!!!" I yell back

She doesn't know that I been attempting suicide a lot. I just can't handle anymore bullshit... I say to myself

"How bad did you cut?" She asks

"Deep .. I kinda almost hit a vein and I have about 25 pills inside of me" I explain

" I am taking you to the hospital " she says

I hate the hospital.. I say to myself

Before the hospital I head downstairs to get something to eat and I grab a banana. I eat it and I when I got to finish it ... I get a feeling like to purge and so I run to the bathroom and  shut the door and start purging then Emily,Tehmi and Luke all come to the bathroom to see if I was ok

"Baby... Let me in" Luke says

"Ok.." I say

So I let him in and I just keep the door open and he sits behind me and hugs me.

"Luke's driving you to the hospital" Tehmi says

"Okay!! " I say

When we get to the hospital.. I get all stitched up and I am not gonna attempt suicide ever agian.