Cruel world

The kiss

(It was kinda embarrassing writing this, but I won't go any further than a kiss....maybe a few more further attempts, but nothing more I don't think I'm ready to write adult stuff, and my grammar is improving so....Maybe next time ^^; I don't wanna make this awkward)

After that night, Eren changed, even if it wasn't noticeable at first. He came back home , with Mikasa holding his arm.

She didn't liked that her brother was going to hide half of the truth. But she wanted to believe him, that at the end he is going to solve this. There are also things Mikasa didn't knew.

They came back home, when Carla jumped on her son and attacked him with questions. And most importantly, she was curious about his behavior.

Eren explained that he have feelings for Levi, and that he ran away because he was troubled about the thing he wanted to do to him while he was feeding him. And he told her the same story from 3 months ago, that he is afraid that Sawano might find him. And that he felt so guilty for behaving that way in front of her, and that so many things happened that made him feel bad and guilty.

Carla was convinced. Seeing her son, holding back his tears and hearing his trembling voice, she believed him. Although she tried to give him a hug, but Eren refused again and decided to go to his room and get things clear with Levi.

It was a bit disappointing for Carla too see that her son is refusing to get comfort from anyone, but she indeed respected his need for privacy. Both Mikasa and Carla decided to let him rest and talk to him tomorrow.

....

Eren closed the door behind him, and looked at Levi. This time with more serious, and numb look. This was new to Levi since he got used to his embarrassed and happy face.

Eren sat on the chair next to the bed, and lowered his head.

He sighed deeply, and looked up to Levi again.

"I want to ask you something...."

Levi turned himself slowly so he could see his half revealed face better.

"Did you had. Moment where thousands and thousands of thoughts and memories followed by voices are talking to you and showing you some scene's that seem so real and yet you never experienced them?"

Levi immidiately responded "yes I did...I was born with the memories of my past life....Did that happened to you today by any chance?'

Eren slightly nodded "So past life huh...." He glanced at the side and scratched behind his neck.
"I know this sounds silly...But...Do you believe that we are reincarnation of 2 people? "

Levi grinned and nodded "I already know that we are.....Eren I bet you are extremely confused by all of that in your head...But if you allow me to stay by your side and help you recognize them and remember...Maybe we can...."

Eren kneeled down and grabbed his hand. His tears started to peek out again but he still held back.

"I just.....I don't kh.....I don't know why.....I tried to kiss you hour ago.....hahah..kh.....*sob* I'm such a baby aren't I.....To cry like this, because of small things.....But to be honest, this might sound selfish...But...I don't want to let you go...When you said you wanted to leave after you get better, I felt sad...For no reason! Levi I.......I shouldn't be like this, but you...nnh...I feel really attached to you..
.From the day we first saw each other to this day...I can't help it but to feel warm and happy seeing you in my house.....I never felt  something like this before, not even with a single girl I met....This feeling....."

"It's called love you dumbass" Levi slightly knocked his head. Seeing Eren like this made him feel bad. He forgot for a moment that he had an injury, so he used both of his hands and lifted Erens head up.

He couldn't believe how beautiful his eyes were when they were sparkling from his tears. His face was so messy, from tears and his hair sticking on his forehead, yet he looked so beautiful in Levi's eyes.

Levi leaned his forehead on Erens forehead and decided to comfort him.

"Listen you brat....You are the only one who can make me feel bad and make me smile, I can't confort anyone like this, and no one can make me feel sad when I look at they're pathetic crying faces....But you...You are something different, you are the person who can change me in a blink of an eye...please Eren stop crying , I can't handle seeing you like this....Why don't you relax and we can talk about this, I can help you...You can help me, we will help each other okay? Come on ...." He gave him a kiss on the forehead.

Eren grabbed Levi's hands, and brought them too his cheeks. He wanted to feel the warmth of them so badly. Both of them forgot about Levi's injuries. He stayed silent for a moment, just to feel his hands, those gentle and soft hands that made him feel a familiar touch, that he never even felt before.

"Hah..." Eren chuckled, while caressing Levi's hands and inspection they're soft texture with his thumbs.
"I'm so pathetic right now.....To think that I can kiss you in that condition......I'm must look like a horny pervert huh? Heheh...."

He laughed because of the fact that he wanted to try and kiss him again, but he held back.

Although Levi saw that he was looking away and biting his down lip. He knew that he was thinking about doing it again.

And because Eren was so shy to do it, before warning him, Levi's stronger arms lifted his upper body up, Eren looked at Levi in confusion and before he registered what was was going to happen, the last thing he heard was "You don't have to hold back anymore"

After that , Eren felt Levi's warm lips pressing against his. His mind went blank, but his hands worked on they're own, he didn't had a control over his hands anymore. He wrapped his arms around Levi's neck and let his tongue enter his mouth. At first he thought that it was going to be a short smooch, but Levi had different  intentions on his mind.

Levi was surprised how Eren gave so quickly in a fight for dominance between they're tongues, but he liked the fact that Eren let him so easly inside his mouth, besides...Levi wanted to remind himself of Erens mouth that always belonged to him.

"Nn..." Eren released a quiet moan.

Levi felt something really warm against his cheeks, he half opened his eyes just to see Erens completely red face, that looked so erotic. Being so close to Eren like this, hearing him moan and feeling his tongue, turned him on a little.

Levi's hands went down to his waist....But that sudden move of his right arm ruined the moment.

He broke from the kiss and grabbed his right arm.

"Damn it! Ah!" He flinched from the sharp pain that rushed through his body.