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FELIX

Felix pov (2 days before the suicide) ⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️

I cry in my pillow wishing everything was just a dream and not real. "Why the hell was going through my head when I did that to her" I say to myself. My dad walks into the room and says "men do not cry" and he slaps me. I yell at him to go away. My family were very conservative and I hated it so much. I read a book to calm me down and all of the sudden I started to feel guilt and sadness. I wanted to something about it but didn't know what to do.

I was having to go to school tomorrow and I hated school because kids would bully me for basically nothing. I had no friends to turn to for when I felt down. I just tried to ignore them but it didn't work too well. I decided to go to sleep and I just cried myself to sleep.

I woke up the next morning and went downstairs to get a glass of water and cereal. I started to feel sick to my stomach and I didn't finish eating. My brother drove me to my stupid school and it was all boys and I thought it was way to conservative. I was quiet the whole way to school and didn't even bother to talk to my brother.

My brother turned on the music in the car and I hated it, he listens to metal and It is so freaking annoying. I get out of the car after my brother parks and I walk into the school very slowly.

I open the doors and head to the lunchroom, where all the kids wait for the bell to ring. This one dude named Jason walks up to me and he has two other guys behind him. Jason pushes me "hey you freak" He says to me and laughs. I roll my eyes "What do you want his time" I ask annoyed. "I want you to not ever talk to my girlfriend ever again, got it?" He yells at me, "Ok, whatever" I say back. The bell rings and I head to my class"

After school)

Jason walks up to me and starts punching me in the face and I fall back hitting my head. I run away and run to my house in fear, "WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR" I yell to myself. I start to cry and look at a cliff area and think of something for a second, but then push it out of my brain.

I open the door to my house and I run upstairs and go into my bathroom. They're are injuries all over my face and cry. I start to have visions of the cliff and started to get dragged into the thought of suicide.

   I go out side and think of all the things that I have done wrong. I get in my bike and ride my way to the cliff. I get to the cliff and stand on the ledge and I start to cry and I get ready to jump. I take a deep breath and jump off.

(I was crying while writing this part:.( oof)