It all started in the bathroom

chapter 2 romantic but sad

It felt weird dating a friend that was a guy, but I would get used it. Then out of nowhere he said if I wanted to just be friends and I said yes. I felt hurt and heart broken inside, but I was okay with it. We ran back to my place, to make a plan. But as soon as we grabbed our pencils we herd bombs dropping from the sky. We took cover just in case it the bombs were going to hit us. One of the bombs hit the side of my house, but when I was freaking out Sammy put his arm around me and said "I love you" and I said the same thing to him. After he said I love you a bomb had hit him right in the face.Blood was coming out of his eyes and arms, I tried to get him up but he didn't move, and his heart wasn't beating. I cried for about 2 hours then I picked him up and made a hole in my backyard then put him in it.I found a stone for me to write on, and when I was done a put the stone above the dirt. I was all alone and had nobody to communicate with. Then suddenly I felt emotional and depressed, so I locked myself in my room for about 7 hours then went back to Sammy's grave. Then I thought in my head how I'm going to live without Sammy then I realized I can't."If I never had  went to the restroom I wouldn't be in this situation" I thought to myself. So I grabbed a knife from my counter and stabbed myself, and before I did that I thought in my head that I would be with Sammy forever now.