I'll keep dancing on my own...

Chapter 13

I have stayed locked up in my room for nearly a week now. I haven't eaten and I only use the en suite bathroom. I look terrible. I haven't brushed my hair and I basically live in my pj's. Joe sits outside the door. Every second, of every minute, of every day. He doesn't eat neither, thats what Zoe keeps saying. I don't go to any of Amelia's appointments, it pains me to much. Zoe and Alfie take, Joe doesn't want to go. I looked in the mirror, my hair stuck up on all places. I had blood all over my pj's, I couldn't help it, I started cutting again. I got a pair of leggings and an oversized long sleeved baggy jumper and put them on. I brushed my hair and put it in a high messy bun. I applied and small amount of concealer, to cover my spots and dark circles. I put on some mascara and quickly brushed my teeth. Zoey and Alfie had took Amelia to the park and Joe had stayed outside on the couch. I quickly looked in the mirror again. I looked some what presentable.
Joe hasn't been uploading and his fans are becoming worried about him because they never see him. I want Joe to go back to his own funny self. I unlocked the door and slowly turned the handle. I saw Joe sat on the couch. He was silent and staring at nothing. I walked over to the couch and sat next to him. We both sat there, not speaking for a while. I felt Joe's eyes on me. I turned and faced him. His eyes were bloodshot, his hair was unbrushed. He suddenly threw his arms around me. I hugged him back even tighter. "I love you," he breathed into my neck. I didn't say anything. I started to cry and so did Joe. Just then, Zoe and Alfie returned. "Mammy," Amelia shouted. I looked over at her she was 8 months old now and was bigger than ever. I ran over to her and engulfed her in giant bear hug. I heard Zoey awe. Joe came over and joined in the hug. I had missed hugs, so much. Joe took Amelia in his arms and she smiled as she looked up at him. Zoe and Alfie came up behind me and hugged me. I went over and put Frozen into the DVD player. Me and Zoe sang along, while Alfie vlogged and Joe got ready. We all laughed and we all seemed to forget about all the bad things. I was still really weak as I had lost alot of weight, so I started to feel really tired. The last thing I remembered was falling asleep on Joe.

***2 years later***

I woke up to the smell of bacon lingering in the air. I followed the scent into the kitchen to see Alfie and Zoe vlogging, while Joe made breakfast. He laid it out on the table and kissed my forehead. We all tucked in and Alfie talked to the camera about what we were doing. I suggested we should all go to butterfly world. Everyone agreed, so we went and got ready. I dressed Amelia in a pastel pink tutu that Zoe had bought her and a white top. I put some white tights on her and a pair of little black dolly shoes. It was a half an hour drive there, so it didn't take that long. When we arrived everyone except me vlogged. Me, Zoe and Amelia laughed and ran around like crazy. Amelia was two nearly three now and she was one of the most adorable toddlers in the world. The doctor said she only jad another year left, so we had made a big list of everywhere we would take her before she passed away. We took loads of selfies and pictures. Joe took a picture of Amelia with a butterfly on her finger. When we had finished we all headed back home. We were travelling to Florida tomorrow, as one of the things in Amelia's list is to visit Disney land. Everybody was really excited and no one, except Amelia, could sleep at all.

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