I realized why i was always so tired, not physically, but tired inside.
It was because I am trying , i was always trying to give my family a better living.
It was always because i'm trying to prove to myself that one day the pain will be gone.
It was always because even until now I can't accept the fact that the only person who accepted me without expecting anything in return is gone for good.
It was always because i wanted to make sure my sister does not suffer the reasons that made me suffer before up untill now.
It was always because i have always kept everything for myself.
It was because i have always dreamed of becoming someone my mother pictured me to be.
It was always because all along i always knew that i can only be the one to fix the hole inside me.
It was always because i have only wanted to live life without worry.
It was always because i have been damaged since i was a kid.
It was always because I'm still trying, trying hard for the people that does not even try for me.
