Saanjh was waiting for Arjun in his cabin. She had brought lunch for him that she herself had cooked. Well, she did take some help from Vandana aunty but most of it was the result of her hard work. Saanjh had been really happy from the past few days since Arjun and Maya had broken up. Her hopes regarding Arjun blossomed again so she had been trying hard lately to make him fall in love with her.
"Arre! Where is this Duffer?" she muttered to herself looking at her wristwatch, "Lunchtime is going to be over soon and this jahapanah is.." she couldn't complete her sentence as Arjun entered the cabin looking furious.
"Arjun?" Saanjh tried to initiate the conversation in the safest way.
"Not now Saanjh!" Arjun's nostrils flared in anger, "I just don't want to talk about anything and to anyone right now. I want to be left alone. Please leave."
An equally furious Saanjh left his cabin without any protest. "Aarrggh! She is making me crazy!" he whisper-yelled pulling at his hair. Maya's words were ringing inside his head making him feel crazy about the situation.
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Sahir chose to not go to the office that day. A night with that woman brought back some painful memories. Memories that he had locked away in some corner of his heart. And with those memories came back all those feelings that he never wanted to feel again.
He could clearly remember that he had not been soft on her. He didn't 'make love' to her, he fucked her. It wasn't so vanilla ass shit, it was pure unadulterated hunger. He couldn't even stop when the realization dawned upon him that she was a virgin. The fact that this was her first time did nothing to slow him down. Instead, he was filled with some kind of primal satisfaction that he was her first.
That satisfaction had washed away the moment memories of Arzoo pulling away from him because he was too harsh on her flooded his mind. She had been hesitant for days after their first night and avoided being close to him. She didn't like many things about him.
Sahir stabbed himself with the nib of his quill pen drawing out blood. 'Will she also think that I am monster for treating her the way I did?' he thought about how harsh he was on her, the woman whose bracelet was hanging from his pen stand.
He knew that he might have left bruises on her body. Not one, but many. He wanted to know how she reacted after seeing her body bruised like that and covered in bite marks.
Sahir dipped the quill pen in his blood using it as ink as he wrote in his diary;
'for I have sinned'
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The first thing that Jhanvi noticed when Maya arrived back home was the latter's bandaged hand. 'Did she hurt herself for Arjun?' was the first thing, the first question that came in her mind.
"Maya, yeh.." Jhanvi was a bit scared of asking the question.
Maya gave her a small smile, "It's nothing serious Maa. Bas chota sa accident." Maya kissed her mother's forehead, "Don't worry, hhmm."
"Maa what have you made for dinner? I am starving!" Maya walked inside the kitchen followed by Jhanvi. She started looking for something to eat but stopped when she heard Jhanvi's next question, "Accident ya Arjun?"
The little smile that Maya had on her face vanished the moment she heard Arjun's name. Here she had been trying her best to move on but people and situations just won't let her. Whenever she thinks that she had taken a step forward, something or someone pulls her back, taunting her of her failed first love.
Maya turned to look at her mother, her expressions stoic, "Didn't I tell you that I have broken up with him?"
"Lekin Maya.."
"Arjun has no place in my life. He chose not to stay and I am not the one who'll beg him to love me. I am not you Maa." Maya had that taunting smile on her face that Jhanvi couldn't meet her gaze. She was aware as to how much Maya had suffered just because Jhanvi couldn't part away with Ashwin.
"Aapko yakin nahi hai?" there was something about her tone that had Jhanvi scared.
"Maya.." but before Jhanvi could say anything further, Maya went inside her room and shut the door close.
She came out after 30 minutes, the most dreadful 30 minutes for Jhanvi. She noticed that Maya came out carrying two cardboard boxes full of some stuff. Maya carried those boxes to the garden area. Jhanvi followed her out, "Maya..? Maya, what are you upto?"
"Maya?" Jhanvi called out again and came to stand beside Maya, "What are you doing bachha?"
"I am giving you the proof that I have moved on, that Arjun doesn't matter to me now." completing her sentence, Maya emptied the contents of the two boxes.
Jhanvi was surprised to see greeting cards, letters, photographs, some chocolate wrappers, some dried up flowers and all the other things that Maya had been storing, those things that she had received from Arjun.
Before her initial surprise could wear off, Maya gave her just another surprise. She poured the petrol over those items and set them on fire, "Maya?!" Jhanvi shouted.
"What's wrong with you Maya?"
"Maa, these are the constant reminders that I had been I a relationship with that Arjun Sharma. The guy who can't love me for who am I and what I am isn't the one for me." she said repeating what that stranger had told her.
"Arjun Sharma ki aukaat nahi ki Maya Mehrotra usse pyaar kare."
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Sahir was trying. He was trying very hard to fall asleep but nothing was working. Because every time he closed his eyes, the memories of his one-night stand would start flashing in front of his eyes. Those scratch marks that she left on his body; the stinging pain from them was also a constant reminder as to just how much wild the night had been.
And if that wasn't just enough; her bracelet that was now resting atop his dressing table felt as if it was glaring at him, for he had stolen it from its owner.
"Why am I not able to forget you?" he questioned to himself.
He groaned as if in pain when the memory of him taking her from behind made itself evident in his mind. Sahir hopped out of the bed, took off his clothes and jumped into the swimming pool. Just a cold shower won't do anything.
As he had said, he had fucked her. Not once, not twice but just some countless times. One night, too many memories and now, it felt as if she had imprinted on him.
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Junoon (Passionate Love, #1)
Fanfiction*The credit for the cover goes to the person who edited it. Maya couldn't get Arjun to love her the way she wanted, the way she needed. So she decided to move on but that isn't as easy as it sounds. Sahir has a bitter past which made him what he is...
