no one cares I don't see the point of anything mainly me constantly crying for nothing one minute I'm sitting in class doing math the next tears are rushing down and I'm trying to cover them I'm not good enough for anything all I can do is sit in my room and cry I either constantly eat or don't eat at all. all of the other girls are well perfect they have it all the popularity, money, boyfriends, and whatever they want. I wonder if everyone would be better of if I died I basically stopped being me I don't understand why I have the voices in my head saying " you're not good enough no one will ever love you, your the ugliest thing on earth you are worthless you don't deserve it why are you even alive" I have that pain in my heart I don't understand it I know that im fake lonely ugly terrible nothing, etc. honestly part of me wants to die tonight part of me wants it to be an accident but part of me wants someone to notice and stop me . No one understands how much there words are hurting me. I want to be happy but something inside me screams " you don't deserve it" I feel like no one appreciates me but why should they I try to be amazing kind and nice but I can't I try and try but it doesn't work I have done the worst things in my past I done drugs to be cool I threw bricks at abandoned houses I went to an abandoned bus to smoke weed I took the pipes I found in the bus I constantly ran away I was homeless for a while this was happening I was raising my little sister then I went into foster care I after a year or two I went to my pre-adoptive family who I met the Christmas before then I found out my dad wasn't my dad I still don't know who my real dad is It sucks to know that your whole life is a lie. I am living in fear I'm scared that some things going to happen and its all going to be my fault I feel if I die everyone's troubles will go away I try to help others but it doesn't matter my whole life I've been nothing I have no chance of having an actual career, I'm constantly screaming crying lying cutting and all of it I am extremely stupid
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sorry its so short but I have to go and cry my head off if someone could please make me a cover that would be amazing by the way all of the above is true
