Smosh family one shots

caught w/shayne

TW// THIS TALKS ABOUT SELF HARM AND DEPRESSION, SO IF THIS KIND OF THING UPSETS YOU I WOULD SKIP THIS ONE

I'm sitting laying down in Shayne's bed looking at the new picture he posted of us together captioned with "I'd say she's pretty cool" it's a picture of us on the beach, I'm wearing a black string bikini and he's wearing grey swim trunks

In the picture we are standing at the shore line I'm standing on my tippy toes and sticking my tongue out at him while he's squishing my cheeks with his pointer finger and thumb

I can't help but to smile while looking at the picture but that smile quickly faided as I read the comments, don't get me wrong most were so sweet, but the other one just hit me harder

We've been dating for 3 years now, and you think the hate comments would of slowed down by now, and they have a little but they still the ones that stick out the most

"She's so fat wtf why is he even dating that pig" "he's so out of her league, he'll realize that and dump her disgusting ass" were just some of the comments I read

Hot tears started streaming down my face as I continued to read them, I eventually just threw my phone on the end of the bed as I called my eyes out

I feel my legs take my to the bathroom then standing in front of the mirror as I start to criticize myself pinching at the fat I had on my stomach and thighs sighing

I sit myself on the tile floor in front of the cabinets and start going through them looking for the razors until I finally found one

I popped the guard off of it and place it on the counter taking another deep breath as I lift one of the sides of my shorts up so nobody would see the cut and looking in the mirror again only to see Shayne standing in the door way

The feeling of guilt fills my body as I see a tear roll down his face I turn around to him my head down as the tears started welling up again

"I didn't do anything I promise" I some how squeaked out "I just wanted to have something else hurt worse than the comments do" I sobbed

"What comments?" He asked me after a while of holding me just letting me cry, I slip out of his arms and walk to the bed him not far behind me

I hand the phone to him as the picture is still pulled up on my phone and he scrolls through the comments, he sighs heavily and locks my phone and lays it beside me

He pulls out his phone and types out a tweet explaining to the fans that the hate comments are very harmful and unnecessary and if he sees anymore they will be blocked

He sends the tweet and locks his phone laying it on top of the other phone "please tell me next time you are feeling that low, I love you too much to see you hurt yourself anymore" he says before pulling me into a long hug and kisses my forehead

"If you weren't home I really don't know what I would of done to myself" I say almost in a whisper another tear streaming down my face

"Let's not think about that" he says sweetly wipping away my tear with his thumb "do you think k you should start going to therapy again? You haven't gone in a couple months" he added as sweetly as he could

"I really need to go obviously" I say with a slight giggle "I just hate calling up there" laying my head on his chest sighing

"I can set up the appointment for you no problem" he said grabbing his phone and dialing the therapist office "hi I wanted to schedule a session for y/f/n with Dr. Smith, tomorrow at 2?" He looked at me to see if that time was ok I nodded

"That would be great, ok thank you, bye" he said and hung up the phone "everything is set up you just have to go and talk, I'll even take off work and we can go at lunch after and talk about it" Shayne says squeezing me tigher

"I love you so much" I whisper placing a little kiss on his neck "I love you too y/n" he said happily as we just layed there in each other's arms

"Can we have the squad over? I'm in the mood to laugh." I ask turning to face him after laying down for 10 or so minutes

"I'll text everyone and say you need a cheering up and see who all wants to come over" he says grabbing his phone once again and I grab my phone too and started scrolling through Twitter

"Everyone is on there way, I'll order some pizza and soda's, we have liquor in the kitchen" says laying his phone on the nightstand snuggling into me again

"We need to get dressed" I laugh trying to wiggle free "I told them it was a pajama party so we don't have to" he adds booping me on the nose

I open my camera to see what damage I did to my makeup earlier while crying, my mascara is everywhere and my face is half off and some how I only have one brow left

I turn and grab the makeup wipes I have on my nightstand and just wiping it all off and move Shayne's arm so I can stand up "I'm just going to do mascara and brows" I say before he can tell me I don't need makeup

"Ok fine, but they are going to be here in any minute" he says texting the group chat

I hear the doorbell ring "can you get the door babe" I ask as he was already getting up he just nods and answers the door "it's Olivia" he says walking her back to where I'm finishing my makeup "HI I MISSED YOU" I yell then run to her giving her a big hug

Every couple minutes someone else shows up until everyone is there and the pizza finally arrives and we just joke around all night, I'm finally happy again I'm so proud to be best friends with these people and especially proud to have a man like Shayne in my life

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A/N if any of you guys are dealing with suicidal thoughts and self harm I'm always here to talk, you aren't alone I've got you're back!