Day:One

DAY : c18

Benjamin :

"EXCUSE YOU!" she retorted. Stopping at the stairway as I've previously slammed the car door before making it in.

"The audacity of you to think walking away from me when I'm speaking is okay. Benjamin have you lost your mind!" She hissed as i still had my back turned towards her.

Drying my eyes as my younger sister walked up the steps prior to my moms request. Sniffling as i rolled my eyes before releasing my shirt that dried my tears.

"The audacity?! Mom you lied to me!" I emotionally exhausted out walking to the lower level. "My life has been an emotional reck because of you!" I semi-yelled as she stood with her hands on her hip.

"You're blaming me for raising and protecting you Benjamin! Are you freaking kidding me? I will not be disrespected" she threw her hands up walking towards and passed me.

"No! You don't get the right to walk away from this. You knew that I've been battling with my sexuality for years! And you took the one person who made me feel comfortable away from me and i never understand why" i quickly spoke as she turned back to me.

"SHUTUP!" She shouted from across the room as she began to walk closer to me. "YOU SHUT YOUR MOUTH" she pointed as her finger tapped my lip.

"You were young, you didn't know any better and i wasn't going to let you ruin your life at a young age. I did what any mother would do and moved that type of influence out of your life " she objected.

"Now you can walk around here now and throw your hissy fit! I will allow that, but outside of that door you are a men you hear me! A MEN!" She screamed at me wiping away my tears.

"I love you Benjamin! But don't you dare judge me for being the best mother i could be. I did what i knew, i didn't know how to raise a gay son, so yes i shut that side of your life off" she emotionally exhausted out cuffing my face.

"Yes i knew Kenneth likes you, when you were younger he wrote you a Valentine's Day Card and it wasn't the type card a boy gives another boy. I'm sorry i took that away from you, but during that moment i couldn't allow you to express yourself that way" she admitted looking into my eyes.

Covering my face as i fought back the emotions that wanted to pour forward. Sighing out as i felt my body shaking from being so angry.

"Never thought I'll be a victim of a quote you spoke to us" i mumbled shaking my head. "Some of the most poisonous people come disguised as the ones you love. How could you."

Gathering the last thought in my head as i turned around walking from her room. The house went silent as i noticed several lips moving from my mom to my sister and brother as i reached for my backpack that hung from the stairway.

Every missed opportunity of me being happy soaked into my heart as my foot stepped onto the lawn.

Gawd! I was so angry!

My brother grabbed me as i witnessed his lips moving but no sound as my chest tightened.

"B"

"Br"

"BRE"

"Benjamin B-"

"BENJAMIN!"

"BREATHE" he shouted as i opened my eyes laying across the yard in his arms. "You good. I got you bro" he blew out a steady breath of air looking over me as i saw my parents rushing beside me.