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panic attack's

This is all true right here about me.

First panic attack

I had a really bad panic attack last year for my 9th grade in school.

I was having an okay morning to start with. I did not really understand my emotions.

I was okay tell my day got messed up with.

I never like that at all. When that happens my whole day is messed with then.

So a couple of teachers I have came to me and talked to me in their office.

They talked to me to see what is wrong because I never act like that.

A couple of my friends ask if I was okay. I did not tell them anything.

When the teacher I was having that morning to talk to my adviser (for my IEP).

I then go to her (even if I don't like her).

I was shaking and I was crying and I did not know what was going on. My chest very like it was accelerating at a fast rate.

She was talking to me. Asking if I was okay.

I said " I don't know anymore."

She then asked me if I want to go home.

I said "yes please

She then asked who Should she call

I said "my mommy" (my stuff was in the locker room because I had PE)

She asked for her number and I gave her it.

She then wrote me a pass and I came and gave it to my teacher and she gave me the key to the locker room and I then grabbed my stuff. Gave the key back.

Then went to the attendances office.

Then my mum picked me up and took me home and that is when I started therapy with my mom's friend.

All me and my mom did all day was watch movies. We probably watched a lot of sad ones and maybe a happy/funny one. I don't really remember.

That was my first panic attack I believe. Is don't really remember my childhood.

Second panic attack

It was maybe new years eve an hour before new year.

I was with my only 2 best friends I had.

We were just talking and it just came I freaked out. I did not know how it started.

But it did.

I was shaking again. This time I was scratching my arm.

I did not know if it was a panic attack or just my emotions.

That was maybe my second panic attack.

Third (second) panic attack

It was today Wednesday the 26th of February.

I woke up at the wrong time.

I was not really feeling well yesterday ( felt like I was going to throw up. Had the chills. Could not pay attention in class. But still ok did.)so I thought I was fine.

I woke up my little sister like I normally do. But instead of at 6:00 it was 6:18.

I put my socks on and my shoes. Then I put on my sweat shirt on then went down stairs.

I did not feel well just like yesterday. So I just had something light. I had chocolate milk.

Then I washed my cup. And then I felt like was going t ok get sick so I ran up the stairs and to my bathroom. I did not get sick. I looked in the mirror and I looked really white. Whiter than I normally looked like.

I then went to my room.

I just layed there. I just could not focus. I was then seeing black dots. I panicked.

Then I was crying and shaking again. My chest was accelerating again. My heart beating on my chest like someone was sitting on it.

My stomach was queasy.

A couple minutes I believe. I don't really know. It felt like hours to me.

My grandma came to take me to school like she normally does.

She asked if I was ready I said yeah I was.

She then asked if I was okay I said no and was going down stairs.

She hugged me and said she was not feeling to great either.

I then took some medicine.

It took a while before I took it I was in the bathroom felling sick to my stomach.

I did not get sick though.

But I did not go to school.

I am calmer then earlier.

But I am going to calm care here in a little bit. Around 9ish.

So that is all.

Bye.

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