It's A Love Hate Thing

Chapter21:Whitney's House

Michael's POV
As the car slowly pulled up in front of Whitney's house I got out and walked to her door slowly knocking on it because of the time it was I knew my son was probably sleeping
"Whitney it's me Let me in I need to talk"
"What about "
"Diana..."
"Go ahead come in"
I walked inside and ran to the kitchen grabbing a bottle of wine just gulping it down as I sat down and told her what I found out she pulled me close and held me
"I'm sorry to be telling you all this I just really needed to vent to someone"
"It's fine , so what are you going to do now?"
That was a good question what the hell was I going to do now.. I didn't want Diana in my presence and I couldn't stand the thought of her just sleeping with another man
"I don't know Nippy... I really don't .. I know I can't go home and look at that woman in the eyes after the kind of pain she caused me ...
hell I don't even know if those girls are mine now" I put my hands to my face shaking my head "I just don't know what to do ... I don't know what to say ... I know if I see her now I'll just say what's on my mind and I can't because it won't be anything nice & if those girls are mine I don't want there first memory to be that mommy and daddy are always fighting and daddy made mommy cry ..."
She got up and sat next to me holding my hand
Do it
I can't
Why not she did
I'm not her I can't hurt her like this no matter how mad I am at her ...
FUCK THAT do it
No damn it!
You know you want to, she hurt you! Now you hurt her right back do what she did to you! Did she think about you?
No she didn't so why should you care!
Would you just shut the hell up care about me or not she's still legally my wife and I will not cheat on my wife! I told my conscious hoping it stop blurring my judgement.
"I should go"
"No" she pulled me back and pressed my lips against hers then ran her fingers through my hair" at this moment I knew the temptation was real
"What was that for?"
"Well it's not like your gonna be married for too long Michael , come to my bed room with me" as tempted as it was I couldn't
"I can't"
"Why not? Come on baby let me make you feel better"
"No , Whitney I can't"
"It's not like she gives a damn about how you feel Michael , forget her and fuck me"
"I can't Whitney ..."
"You can" she whispered as she slowly slid her hand down my chest slowly grabbing my dick my eyes widened and I stepped back falling back against the couch
"I know you wanna fuck me Michael"
she whispered in my ear before taking off my shirt
"I-I can't Whitney"
"Yes you can baby just think about how good I feel"
"G-God No I can't Whitney come on"
"Oh come on Michael it's not like it matters that your still married to her if she already stepped out so stop playing and fuck me"
She took my hands slowly pushing them hard against her breast I cupped them for a min then let them go looking at her
"Trust me Whitney I really wish I could do this right now ... but I just can't"
"Okay so when your legally separated I better be the first person you fuck not no damn lawyer"
As tempting as that sounded sex just wasn't on my mind even as drunk as I was I still had some kind of respect left for my marriage