Young and Dumb

after shock

(a few weeks later) I hadn't heard form the mystery person who's been harassing me for the past few weeks and things had started to be semi normal living alone in this big house I had Weston, Natalee and Hunter. Dusty hadn't been to school for weeks witch was semi suspicious if you ask me but I didn't care no threats were made about me and Weston being together and I was just starting to feel better again I still lived in the family house even though my parents were gone. We were coming up on a party on Friday at my house it's one of the biggest party's I throw all year and everyone is hyped to be almost the top dogs at the school even though its just barley march and no one has even heard from dusty. Nat is helping me get ready for the party  and i'm not sure why i was so nervous. i haven't been  feeling like myself lately but i didn't want to say anything to my friends because they'd put me back in the hospital and thats the last thing i need. Wes and i are having a movie night and i was kind of scared that he'd yell at me for what i did and overreact and i don't want him to i love him and all but i think i'm perfectly fine (not really though) i'm really struggling and don't know how to get help i feel like i'm drowning but i'm on dry land nothing helps not talking not doctors not anything i don't see the point  besides my wonderful boyfriend  and my best friend who try and make my life bearable but sometimes its just not enough but that's normal i guess. but the party is in 4 days and we gotta pretend everything is okay  i know i need to tell him though cause he'll be mad if i don't not mad just disapointed and sad and well have a very serious talk witch just shows that he cares a lot  .