A Bigger Infinity

I'm gonna bug you for a while

Chapter 1

HAZEL POV

Gus has been in the hospital and I've been waiting for the dreaded call for days, but not today, I'm going to go sit at the hospital and try to help out the family and hopefully see Augustus.

I drag my tank behind me as I walk through the hospital parking lot.

Memorial is bigger than Children's, less colorful. It has that signature hospital smell that over the years I have become used to.

People in wheel chairs roam the halls, countless people in each waiting room.

As I pass a window I see a play ground and I stop to look at it. I imagine Caroline swinging on the swing set each day before the tumor took over her brain. I sigh, it's completely empty like most hospital playgrounds. It occurs to me why he was curious about her, going out on that swing set each day. Most cancer patients hide away in their rooms. I would have asked about her too.

I continue walking to the waiting room closest to Augustus, I really hope I get to see him today I haven't seen him in almost a week and I miss him. God, I sound like some lovesick teenager who can't go a week alone.

But I am worried I'll never see him again, never see that crooked smile, or hear his voice, I have good reason to miss him.

As I get there I see his parents and sisters and their family's in the waiting room.

They look up when they see me.

"Hazel" Mark says and comes up to hug me along with him mom.

"Hey, how is he?" I ask

"Better he started some new medicine called philaxiphore" his mom says and I laugh

"And is it working" I say still laughing, I'm becoming short on breath but this is funny.

They look at me like I'm insane

"Yeah, why?" His dad asks

"That's the experimental medicine they used on me to shrink my tumors, my miracle medicine as my dad called it. It doesn't work on many people though I'm one of like 20 it actually worked on" I say calming down and I see relief flood their eyes and trust me I'm feeling it to, he is getting better.

"Well I always knew you and Gus were special" he laughs

"I really hope it works" I say as I sit down to one of his sisters

"We all do" Mary says

I sit there reading an Imperial Affliction for a while before a doctor comes in. His parents stands up.

"He's asking for someone named Hazel, I know I haven't met a Hazel and he might be delirious but I'm still supposed to check" he says "know who she is?"

I raise my hand and he looks at me but then I soon seen his eyes travel down the tube to my tank.

"What's your relationship with the patient?" He asks eyes still on my tank

"I'm his Girl Friend" I say simply

His eye brows raise "I need to be sure the tank is a necessity to you before you take it in, we don't want extra clutter" he says

We all just look at him.

"Thyroid that snuck into my lungs so yeah....... I really need the help my lungs are crap" I say standing up "I'm already under oxygenated enough as it is"

And he nods

"Sorry it doesn't really matter I was just curious" he admits

"you could have just asked you know" I say annoyed

"Well the kid won't stop sayin your name so do you want to see him?" He asks and I look to his parents who nod.

So I go.

When I get there he is layed on the bed his hair a mess tubes at every odd and end. He must have hear the door close.

"Please tell me you got Hazel" he says "I can't stand anymore baby talk"

His voice the same as I remember and it's a relief to hear it.

The doctor didn't come in the room with me so I say. "I'm here Augustus"

"Oh thank god"he says "I was getting tired of being called gussy wussy"

I laugh as I sit down in the chair beside his bed. He turns his head to look at me.

"Well aren't you a beautiful sight" he says reaching out to grab my hand, I meet him halfway.

He takes a deep breath "I missed you" he says barely audible.

"I missed you too" I whisper back

"They wouldn't let me see you" he says shaking his head and closing his eyes "what if I had died? I wouldn't have ever got to see your face again. Now that's one sad fate Hazel Grace"

"I'm here now, and your not dead, fact your getting better" I say trying to hold tears in.

"I know" he smiles "do you know what medicine they put me on?" He asks

"Your mom told me" I respond

"Being saved by the same drug who saved the love of my life, the mediphorical reasoning are endless" he says squeezing my hand tighter

"You do like mediphores"

"And I love you"

"I love you too" I say and stand up, I lean over and place a small gentle kiss on his lips and he gladly responds.

I pull away just a bit.

"I told you Hazel Grace, I'm gonna bug you for a long time"