A Bigger Infinity

My Mark is You

Augustus POV

I'm gonna get better! I will get to leave my mark on this world after all. But I guess I already may have, being all caught up in dying I really didn't listen to Hazel.

She knows me, and she is a mark I would've left behind. The marks ones leaves are to often scars.

I sigh, I guess I really don't NEED the world to know me I just WANT it to. Hazel is so smart and beautiful, she understands the world, life like I never could. If she wanted to she could leave a big mark on this world. But she chooses not to, she is loved deeply but no widely and that, that is enough for her.

Why do I need more? I'm scared my time on this world will have been for nothing. But how can it be when I'm with her?

I turn in bed, it's after visiting hours and I don't get to go home until next week. Something about rebuilding my strength.

I really hope I won't have to be in that go forsaken wheel chair much longer.

My IV tugs on my arm and is really annoying.

I just want out of here, so I can get back to my life.

School, counterinsurgence, my room, and Hazel Grace.

I wish Hazel were here now. Much more than my sisters cause they talk to me in these condescending voices that make me feel like a toddler.

And my parents, they just stare at me like they will never see me again. Or like I'm a ghost. That's the thing about Hazel, people have looked at her like that, have talked to her like that. She was once minutes away from death as well. She knows how annoying it is, she doesn't look or talk to me like that.

God I love her.

I mean seriously every thought I have somehow steers it's way back to her.

I never thought I'd fall in love, but if I am meant to, I'm glad it was with her. My Hazel Grace.

"I wish you were here" I mumble.

Then I got the single greatest idea of all time.

I could just call her, it's only 10:00......

I grab my phone and click it on, I go to my recently called and look at that she is on the top of the list. I smile.

I press her name and listen to the dial tone.

She answers on the third ring

"Gus?" She asks sounding a bit worried

"Hazel Grace" I respond my perusal greeting for her

Hazel: Are you okay?

Augustus: oh I'm grand, I'm on a roller coaster that only goes up my friend

I can just hear her smile, the day we met was one of my better metaphorical days if I do say so myself.

Hazel: Okay

Augustus: Okay...... I love it when you say okay.

I hear a faint laugh on the other side of the phone and smile.

Augustus: Hazel, I have called you because I am unbelievably bored and I have had a breakthrough

Hazel: okay, go on

Augustus: I don't need the whole world to know my name, I don't need my obituary printed in the New York Times, all I need, let me rephrase that. All I want is you.

There was a pause

Hazel: I love you Augustus Waters, thank you for continuing to suffer from personhood with me

Augustus: it is my pleasure and my responsibility to live this life with you Hazel Grace. And if I have not made it clear before, I love you Hazel Grace, I love you.

Hazel: okay

Augustus: okay

Hazel:okay

Augustus: okay

Hazel: okay

It was Hazel who finally hung up.