~Am I just a Shadow?~ Suga FF

Chapter 1

*Alarm goes off*
Y/n:"Oh lord can you just shut up!?"
Smacking the alarm and throwing it across the room and got up from bed to go change and do all the morning shit.
Y/n:"Yo mom. I'm going"
Mom:"aren't you gonna eat anything?"
Y/n:"No." While walking away to school
You entered school with people looking at you. As if your the only girl they have seen. You just walked to the office, since you really didn't care about everyone. Except this one boy named Yoongi.. aka your friend. Well actually crush
Y/n:"Yo."
Yoongi:"Oh hi Y/n!"
You:"Mmhm."
Yoongi:"Didn't eat dinner huh." While walking with you to the office
Y/n:"Well i'm glad your in this school."
Yoongi:"I want you to meet someone after school."
Y/n:"When, where."
Yoongi:"At the sakura tree after school. You know where it is"
Y/n:"The one where we met?"
Yoongi:"Yeah."
Y/n:"K."
You walked away while he went to his class
You barged in the office
Y/n:"My schedule?"
Lady:"Oh you must be-" You cut her off
Y/n:"Just give me the damn schedule."
Lady:"Y-yes" She stuttered while giving you the schedule
Y/n:"Cool." You walked away to class and barged in
Y/n:"Yo."
Teacher:"Shouldn't you knock first?"
Y/n:"Shouldn't you let me introduce myself?" The class laughed
Y/n:"Shut it." The class gets quiet
Teacher:"So who are you? A new student?"
Y/n:"Yes. I'm Y/n. Kim Y/n. Mess with me? I'll fuck you up thanks." You sat in the back of the class
(In your mind)
I should of skipped class. Stupid school. I wish I didn't fall for him either. *sighs* Why?...
Your thoughts got cut off
Teacher:"Y/n!" He shouted
Y/n:"What the hell do you want."
Teacher:"What is the questions answer?"
Y/n:"Do I care?"
Teacher:"You do" You laughed
Y/n:"You thought." You stepped out of class not caring
Yoongi:"What do you think your doing?"
Y/n:"Skipping."
Yoongi:"How many times-"
Y/n:"Look I don't care what my mom thinks okay?"
Yoongi:"Why?"
Y/n:"None of your business." You turned your back on him
Yoongi:"What happened to you?"
Y/n:"Love happened."
Yoongi:"What do you mean?"
You laughed
Y/n:"You don't need to know."
Yoongi:"Please.."
Y/n:"Leave me be. I'll meet you at the sakura tree." You walked away to the rooftop
Y/n:"Peaceful.." You said while your hair was blowing in the wind
???:"Well well well. Look who it is"
Y/n:"Okay first of all: You can fuck off. And second of all: Don't fucking test me Jennie."
Jennie:"Why wouldn't I?"
Y/n:"We all know i'm stronger than you"
Jennie:"T-that's not true!"
Y/n:"Go on. Lie to yourself. Could careless."
Jennie:"Ugh!! Did you know-"
Y/n:"Yeah bye." You walked away to the sakura tree
Y/n:"where is he?.."
Yoongi:"Y/n!! Over here!!"
Y/n:"Hi- Oh."
Yoongi:"This is my girlfriend Jennie!"
Y/n:"...." You faked your bestest smile
Yoongi:"Thanks for supporting me!"
Y/n:"Anytime!"
You felt as if your heart broke in millions of pieces.. How could I be so wrong.. He would never love me. Someone like me.. I'm just a mistake.
Y/n:"I shall be going now! Bye." You walked away
Yoongi:"Y/n I thought-"
You already walked away
(At home)
Y/n:"Yo mom."
Mom:"Oh your back!"
Y/n:"Mmhm." You walked upstairs
Y/n:"How could I be so stupid!?" You threw all the stuff on your desk off. To the floor and shouted over and over again
Y/n:"I-i'm so stupid.." You dropped to your knees and started crying in the corner
Mom:"Dear... Are you alright? May I come in?"
Y/n:"I'm fine mom."
Mom:"Are you-"
Y/n:"I'M SURE OKAY!?" You yelled at the door
Mom:"A-alright.." She walked away
Y/n:"I'm sorry mom.." You whispered while walking to your bathroom cabinet
Y/n:"Well there you are"
You looked at the pills.
Y/n:"N-no not today!"
You put it back in the cabinet and changed your clothes into a hoodie and pants and went outside
Y/n:"Mom i'm going outside."
Mom:"O-okay be safe!"
Y/n:"Mmhm."
You went to the park where you met your first friend. Who isn't there with you anymore.. Because She dissapeared.. Out of nowhere. Left me all alone. Alone in the dark.
You sighed as you sat down and hugged your knees
Y/n:"How's it up there?.."
Y/n:"Are you happy?.."
Your tears started to run down your cheek as the wind blew.. you see feet infront of you
Y/n:"What do you want."
???:"Y/n why are you crying?"
You looked up to see Yoongi standing there. With his girlfriend who was mad.
Y/n:"Oh it's you. And it's none of your business." You got up and started to walk away again while wiping your teats away
Yoongi:"Look Y/n what's wrong? Ever since that one day you started to act cold towards me.."
Y/n:"I could careless." You still didn't look at him.
Yoongi:"Y/n what happened..?"
Y/n:"Don't think about talking to me."
You were actually hurting inside just because.. You couldn't stand them.. You fell in love. You regret it ever since the day you met him.. Why did I fall for him?..
Yoongi:"Come on... Tell me"
Y/n:"Hate me. Throw me down. Kill me" You looked at him with blank eyes as your tears ran down
Yoongi:"W-what.." He seemed shocked
Y/n:"This is me.. Accept it"
You put your hood on and walked away from them while they are standing there speechless. Jennie smirking, like it was her plan or is it?

Why can't I just fall in love when I want to? Why does it have to be him? Why... JUST WHY ME!?

(At home)
Y/n:"I'm home."
Mom:"Welcome-"
Y/n:"No." You cut her off and walked upstairs
Y/n:"Oh I see the sun falling down. I guess it's time"
You opened your window and climed on to the roof and sat there
Y/n:"Dad I wanted to say hi.. I'm sorry I haven't been here these past weeks I apolagize for that.. I just can't look at myself the same anymore ya know?"
You sighed while looking up at the sky
Y/n:"Why did you run away brother?.."

TO BE CONTINUED!!...