Dear 親友,
Hi Dude how have you been it's been a while since we have talked to each other.
I've missed the days when we were both crazy
Those antics and troubles we have caused.
I've missed those moments with you.
I've missed being the reason of your laugh and smiles.
I miss you.
I really love being there for you through your pain and sadness.
But still it hurts me seeing your hurt because of her.
Hurt because you love her and it's torturing me knowing that I could never be her.
Hurt seeing how you look at her the way I look at you.
It hurts loving you more than you'll ever know.
It hurts when I've lost you even when I never had from the start.
It never stops hurting knowing I have given you the best of me but watching you choose her, it feels like I'm worthless.
And all I could do is to support you to your heartbreak even if it breaks mine.
But it's really painful to stay by your side to have you close yet so far.
Maybe it's for the better for things to be left unsaid.
Maybe it's the reason that we are slowly breaking apart I have realized that in order to make your heart whole again I've been slowly breaking mine.
But is okay cause I know I got to see you smile again.
I've got to see you smile again even if I'm not the caused of it.
I hope you could be happy with her more happier that you could ever be when you have been with me.
I hope she makes you smile brighter than what I have seen you smile when your with me.
I hope she treasure you unlike with me who is unable to and could only give you to others for them to keep.
Now that your back by her side again all I can say is I'm happy for you even if it hurts like hell.
In the end we can't always have what we wanted.
