turned the water on, i need to cool my head. I--I wanted make love with my bestfriend's girlfriend. I wanted her to be mine, i loved hearing her moan, i love the feeling of her finger on my skin.
And for a while, i wish Sulli didn't exist.
What have you become, Amber?
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Out of frustation I was having sex with every girl i could get, i don't mind having two or three of them at once, pleasuring each one of them. At the end only to get more frustated because i still can't get her out of my mind.
I played basketball until i threw up, don't want to be able to think anymore. The guys are exchanging looks, wondering what's wrong with me.
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That night i made love to Sulli like i never did, at the end feeling more guilty about it because i was using Sulli to erase Amber from my head by doing it. I made love to her again and again , need to be sure that she is the one I love.
"Soojung, stop."
I wasn't listening and kept on kissing her "Soojung, please stop"
I kept on ignoring her
"Please stop, Soojung, You're hurting me" Sulli was sobbing.
I was shocked and broke the kiss. Sulli curled into fetal position, still sobbing.
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry, Ssul" I tried to comfort her and hold her
"I'm sorry Soojung"
"I'm sorry, Ssul, it's not your fault. I'm sorry"
I'm becoming a monster. I have to get away from Amber, i need to take my distance before i hurt Sulli. She has gone through a lot, i can't let her getting hurt anymore.
I just can't.
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The next days Amber and I are busy avoiding each other. The problem is the harder i try to avoid her, the more i miss her. I miss her dorky smile, i miss seeing her handsome face, i miss that sexy bangs of hers.
This is not helping, the more i avoid her, the more i miss her.
Krystal Jung, you're making me crazy.
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I peeked through the garage door, i could see Krystal is eating her breakfast alone at the kitchen. Sulli is at school, that means we're home alone. I'm just gonna hang here in the garage until she goes to her room.
Spending times alone with Krystal in a room with no one around is not really a good idea. I'm just gonna check my car. I was absentmindedly walking backward, until
"Shit!" I cursed loud as I cut my arm. I didn't see the sharp edge of the garage door, blood starts trickling. Uuuhhh, i tried to cover it with a towel i found, but the towel turned red in an instance.
