What If

Is it over then?

"Ehm, okay?" I questioned and slowly walked towards them with my hands in my pockets. They lot go of the hug really awkwardly. "I put the flowers in water.... But what the hell?" Lisa looked at the floor and Joey trying to look at something else. "Thanks!" Lisa said. There where just silent, I started worrying about if that was more than JUST a hug. "What just happened there? I mean, I go for two minutes and when I come back you guys are hugging, like... HUGging!!" I said in confusion. "So? Can't friends hug?" Joey said with a bitchy voice, uhr.. I really didn't like him. "That didn't look like a friend hug to me?" Lisa started walking towards me. I thought she was coming to be by my side, but instead she walked past me and in to the kitchen. "Joey, leave!" I demanded. He didn't move. "GET OUT!!" I yelled and walked towards him. He stepped back and walked to the door. He looked back once and I pointed at the door as a sign for him to leave. He left the house and I walked to the kitchen to find Lisa. She was learning in over the sink. "Lisa?" I stood by her side, I put my hand on her back. "What." She said with a cracky voice. "Lisa? I'm not mad at you. You know that right?" I just wanted her to calm down, she seemed a little out of her self "I'm sorry!" She mumbled. "No no no, it's okay! Don't be. Come here" I grabbed her arm and pulled her into a hug. She didn't hug back, I lot go. "Wait, what's wrong? It was just a hug.... Right?" I was starting to get worried. She looked at me, she had tears in her eyes. This could not have been from the hug. "Lisa, your crying?" I said calm. "He.... Kissed me" those words hit me like someone stabbing me in the heart again and again and again. I almost fell over my own feet. I didn't say anything. I just stood there, with open mouth. Looking at her. She must have liked it or else she wouldn't have hugged him after. "Yo-.. You lot him?" I almost couldn't speak. "No.. Well.. Kinda caus-.. BUT IT DIDNT MEAN ANYTHING!!" She walked towards me. How could they just.... Kiss? "Mean anything? But.... How could you even THINK of kissing him... And.. And HUGGING HIM AFTER?" I almost yelled at her. "I'm sorry... I-.. I-.. I don't know what I was doing? I jus-.." I cut her off. "I'm not good enough for you? Is that it?" I felt tears in my eyes. SHANE. DONT YOU CRY. I told my self. "NO! SHANE YOU ARE BETTER THAN GOOD ENOUGH. I'm telling you. I am SO sorry. I love you, I love you so much" she tried to hug me. I didn't let her... "I thought you where different" I mumbled. "Shane, please..... Please!" She busted our crying.