Dream like this

Chapter I

"Raven! Get up!" my mom was shouting.
"I can't" I grunted.
My mom came to my room with a glass of water and some anti depression pills. I hate those pills. They don't help at all. I swallowed them anyway, because it gives my mom hope. Living with a kid troubling depression isn't easy and I know it. It must be tough for my parents.
I forced myself to get dressed, eat something and go to school. The first person I saw at school was my ex best friend Ashley. She didn't even look at me. Ohh I miss her so much! We were best friends for so long. But unfortunately she left me like everyone else. She started being friends with our biggest enemy - Marie. I am kind of worried about her even though she abandoned me. I don't really have anyone to talk to at school so I was just sitting alone. I'm used to being lonely. It suits me. I never fit in and I don't want to fit in. I am different.

The first lesson was maths. To be honest, I wasn't paying attention at all. I was drawing my crush Tom Hiddleston. He's a british actor. I love him and he is my reason to live.
"Raven, why don't you tell us what the answer is?" I heard teacher's voice.
"Umm..."
"I'm guessing you don't know." she said.
I blushed. Everyone was looking at me. I hate that.
"Stay in the classroom after the lesson please" said the teacher. Uhh I was in trouble as usually.
When the bell rang everyone left the class except me. The teacher came to me.
"Why do you keep acting like this? You don't pay attention and your grades aren't the best"
"Umm... I don't know, I'm really sorry."
"Did your parents consider going with you to a psychologist?"
"Actually, I go to a psychologist and psychiatrist."
"Oh. Good to know. Now go, because you're gonna be late for the next class!"she said and I grabbed my bag and left the classroom.

All the girls in my class were ignoring me as always. I was sitting in the corridor and reading a script to a play that I'll go to London for. Tom Hiddleston plays in it and I have seats in the first row! It's called "Betrayal" by Harold Pinter.

After school I went straight home, lied on my bed and listened to music. I was exhausted. Depression kills me everyday. I have no idea how I am supposed to live with this. I tried to focus my thoughts on Tom. He is such a good person. I hope to meet him in London!