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Smut 1 Castiel

At first, Castiel finds his arousal bothersome. Unexpected hard-ons become a fact of life. He doesn't understand what triggers them. Sometimes it seems as if just brushing against another person in the street is enough. Sam says he's touch starved. Dean is more vulgar. He says Cas is worse than a horny teenager.

Castiel tries to ignore his throbbing cock. He could ignore it when he was an angel. He simply waved his hand and all those annoying, biological urges went away. He can't ignore them now he's fallen.

Eventually Dean gives him some tissues and tells him to go spend some time alone in the bathroom. He promises Castiel it'll make it better and Castiel believes Dean.

The first time Castiel jerks himself off is pleasurable in its relief but nowhere near as wonderful as Castiel expected it to be from all his years watching humanity. He can't see why humans make such a fuss about sex. It feels like an enjoyable chore to him, something to get out the way so he can continue with his day.

It isn't until he starts to experiment that Castiel realizes just how good masturbation can be. The first time he slides a finger inside himself, just to see how it feels, makes him moan like nothing else. Soon he's up to three fingers, fucking in and out of his ass while he jerks his cock and sobs brokenly for more.

A trip to a sex shop provides him with a long, thin dildo and that's when Castiel discovers he can come just from fucking himself on the toy. He starts to build a collection - big, thick, vibrating, ribbed - he likes them all. Castiel finally understands just why people are so obsessed with sex. He understands why it makes them feel so good.

And he begins to wonder what it would feel like to have someone fucking him. He closes his eyes when he has his favorite toy inside of him and tries to picture a made-up lover. The image in his mind is always the same; an easy-going smile, warm green eyes, freckled, sun-kissed skin.

Castiel knows just how this man would move in him, how he'd make Castiel come so many times. He knows how this man would give him everything he needs, how he could be rough one day and gentle the next.

Castiel knows just how this man would love him and when he comes, he comes with his name on his lips.

"Dean."