The day my grandmother was taken off all of her medication and machines, my cousin who is a nurse spent the night in her room alongside her boyfriend to see if she would make it through the night or not. We have a family group chat on Telegram so she keep messaging us as our grandma's heart rate or breathing went down. At the time I was up looking through a big tub of pictures looking for ones of my grandmother for a slide show. I did that to keep me busy as I waited to finish looking through everything. Every message made my heart jump not knowing what was going to be said next. My cousin kept steadily sending us messages then all of the sudden she stopped and all of us were in suspense. I was about to stop lookin* through the pictures and go to sleep as soon as I get ready to get in my bed, and her sister and her mom (my aunt) questions the long pause the my cousin replies "She passed away at 1:24 am".
After reading the tex that said my grandmother, the only grandmother I was given the opportunity to love, the same grandmother I use to blow imaginary kisses to and throw an imaginary net so she could catch them was gone. I turned my head straight and froze. All I heard was static mixed with complete silence. I cried saying "I don't know how to feel", I kept repeating it. That was the loudest I had cried besides two days prior. I really didn't know how to feel, I was in shock. When I was crying I wasn't hot, everywhere on me was cool but then I felt a warm ness on my lower back and I couldn't do anything but cry. I called my dad and asked him if he saw the chat and—he didn't so I told him that she passed and I could tell he wa sim shock too. Both of my uncles, two of my aunts, and my dad and I rode up to the hospital to be with my cousin and my now deceased grandmother. When I got him her room I just stared at her and nothing else. I honestly probably looked crazy. As long as I stared at her in the moment before and after her passing I can't see what she actually looked like at that point. I didn't have the energy to cry at that point but I wanted to.
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Losing my grandmother
Короткий рассказI just wanted to share my story about how I lost my grandmother recently and all the other things that have happened after her passing and how I felt. This is very detailed for the most part and messy but it's how I felt and feel.
