Diary of the scarred

Hate.

This hate that you gave me

It boils my heart

Can't trust your words

So I'll trust the dark

It happens often

When I picture your face

I can't help but feel

An incredible amount of hate

I can't control it

This hate and this rage

It wants to be released

It's sick of being caged

How could you

I can't fucking believe it

You made me give you my heart

Just so you could squeeze it

So you could squeeze out the life

And make me wish for death

You've seen my scars

But did you even fucking care

Were those tears even real

Do you even care about my pain

Or are you laughing

And still playing this stupid game

I know

I've done my deed

Every time I think about your pain

I can't help but bleed

Was it for revenge

I thought you forgave me

You were suppose to be my angel

But in the end you didn't save me

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I made you cry

Every fucking day

I just wish I could die

I cut

I cut for you

Believe me when I say

That your pain hurts me too

I was an idiot

Now I feel stupid

I didn't want to believe you would hurt me

But a part of me knew it

I kept having that feeling

But I always pushed it away

I'm having the same feeling

And it seems to want to stay

I hate you so much

Because I love you so much

Maybe one of these days

I can give you my trust